[Intro]
Alone in the silence, battling my mind’s storm
Searching for a reason, wondering where I belong
[Verse 1]
Months turn to years, the solitude’s grown deep
My hobbies, my refuge, when I can't find sleep
Wrestling with shadows, football’s my escape
In the roar of the crowd, is a joy I can’t fake
[Pre-Chorus]
Is this my fate? A lonely soldier’s trail
Or just a chapter in a divine tale?
Am I cursed or blessed, caught in this dance?
Living for the thrill, risking the chance
[Chorus]
Am I doomed, or is love just out of sight?
Waiting in shadows, hiding from the light
Will I ever feel that sacred, fiery glow?
Or am I destined to just let it go?
Lusting for flesh, craving fame’s high
Seeking salvation in the sky or in my eye
[Bridge]
God, if you hear me, lift this weight from my chest
Show me your blessing, let me feel blessed
But if I’m meant to walk this lonely road
Then I’ll carry my love, my heavy load
[Outro]
So I channel my love, into passions I trust
Hoping someday, it will turn to love’s true lust
Till then I stand, a soldier in the dark
Seeking love’s light, with a battling heart
[Intro]
Waiting in the shadows, chasing my own light
Self-love’s a journey, through the darkest night
[Verse 1]
Thought I needed someone, to fill the space inside me
But now I see it’s me, who sets my own heart free
Tried to be enough, despite the cracks and flaws
Learning to love me, despite the world's applause
[Pre-Chorus]
Someday, you'll look my way, see the fire inside
When I’m in my prime, I'll be the reason you'll believe
Wait and see, the story’s mine to write
Until then, I’ll shine, waiting for the spotlight
[Chorus]
Now I know I will never be loved, but I’ve learned how to love myself
Sorry I wasn’t good enough for anyone, but I tried, oh I tried
Just wait till you see me in my prime, will you want me then?
If you don’t, that’s okay, I’ve still got my pride
Someday you’ll love me, and I’ll be done searching
But until then, enjoy the show, watch me keep ascending
[Bridge]
All my scars, they tell the story of my strength
Each step I take, I’m forgetting all the pain
No need for validation, I’ve got my own throne
I’ve found my happiness, I’ve finally come home
[Outro]
So enjoy the show, I’m the star of my own life
In my prime, I’ll rise above the strife
No more waiting, no more tears to shed
Loving myself, that’s my new life’s thread