Lonely Days

Alone in the silence, battling my mind’s storm

Searching for a reason, wondering where I belong

Months turn to years, the solitude’s grown deep

My hobbies, my refuge, when I can't find sleep

Wrestling with shadows, football’s my escape

In the roar of the crowd, is a joy I can’t fake

Is this my fate? A lonely soldier’s trail

Or just a chapter in a divine tale?

Am I cursed or blessed, caught in this dance?

Living for the thrill, risking the chance

Am I doomed, or is love just out of sight?

Waiting in shadows, hiding from the light

Will I ever feel that sacred, fiery glow?

Or am I destined to just let it go?

Lusting for flesh, craving fame’s high

Seeking salvation in the sky or in my eye

God, if you hear me, lift this weight from my chest

Show me your blessing, let me feel blessed

But if I’m meant to walk this lonely road

Then I’ll carry my love, my heavy load

So I channel my love, into passions I trust

Hoping someday, it will turn to love’s true lust

Till then I stand, a soldier in the dark

Seeking love’s light, with a battling heart

Waiting in the shadows, chasing my own light

Self-love’s a journey, through the darkest night

Thought I needed someone, to fill the space inside me

But now I see it’s me, who sets my own heart free

Tried to be enough, despite the cracks and flaws

Learning to love me, despite the world's applause

Someday, you'll look my way, see the fire inside

When I’m in my prime, I'll be the reason you'll believe

Wait and see, the story’s mine to write

Until then, I’ll shine, waiting for the spotlight

Now I know I will never be loved, but I’ve learned how to love myself

Sorry I wasn’t good enough for anyone, but I tried, oh I tried

Just wait till you see me in my prime, will you want me then?

If you don’t, that’s okay, I’ve still got my pride

Someday you’ll love me, and I’ll be done searching

But until then, enjoy the show, watch me keep ascending

All my scars, they tell the story of my strength

Each step I take, I’m forgetting all the pain

No need for validation, I’ve got my own throne

I’ve found my happiness, I’ve finally come home

So enjoy the show, I’m the star of my own life

In my prime, I’ll rise above the strife

No more waiting, no more tears to shed

Loving myself, that’s my new life’s thread