Curse of My Mind

In the shadows of my mind,

Caught in the infinite grind,

Fighting urges I can't tame,

Living with this internal flame.

Lust pulls me deep like hidden seas,

Desires that I can't appease,

Fears of the pain, the stakes so high,

Hiding truths I can't deny.

But I know, I know there's more,

Beyond the walls I build ashore,

Deep inside a silent plea,

Wishing someone would see me.

I'm a stranger, lost in my own maze,

Living in the flicker of a solitary blaze.

Fighting my obsessions, breaking free,

Longing for understanding, longing to be free.

Focus sharp on passions that define,

Emo tunes and the wrestling grind,

Football’s rhythm, pounding heart,

My safe haven, my sacred part.

They say broaden your view,

But these are the only truths I knew,

In my world, I find my place,

A quiet corner, a sacred space.

I'm a stranger, lost in my own maze,

Living in the flicker of a solitary blaze.

Fighting my obsessions, breaking free,

Longing for understanding, longing to be free.

Maybe someday, they’ll understand,

That this isn’t just a flaw or a brand,

Just a different way to see,

A different course, a different me.

So I stand alone, and I hold on tight,

To my passions, my guiding light,

A freak, a misunderstood soul,

But in my heart, I am whole.

Somewhere between the shadows and my mind

Trying to find a way to make you understand

I’m caught in a maze, lost within myself

Not meant to hurt, not meant to harm

Just trying to open up, lift the fog off my heart

But I see you drifting, pulling apart

Feel like I’m the only one neurotic here

Loving too much, getting lost in my fears

Unique in my way, misunderstood in my core

Wishing I could be more, but I’m reaching for the door

Someone, somewhere, gotta give me a chance

To explain these feelings, to help you understand

I don’t wanna push away, don’t wanna lose your trust

Just a lonely soul, trying to be enough

Feels like I’m screaming, but no one’s around

The pain of knowing I’m breaking down ground

Boring into friendships, causing silent dread

All my hopes to pull you in, just hanging by a thread

I’m the only one who loves in a different way

Disagreed, misunderstood, every single day

It’s not about me being wrong or right

Just trying to hold on through the night

Someone, somewhere, gotta give me a chance

To explain these feelings, to help you understand

I don’t wanna push away, don’t wanna lose your trust

Just a lonely soul, trying to be enough

Sorry for being me, the way I am

Wishing you’d see, I don’t mean any harm

All I want is to be seen and heard

In a world where love is the only word

So I’ll keep trying, despite the fall

Hoping someday, you’ll hear my call

To be more than misunderstood or lost

To find a way, to heal the cost