If I Don’t Wake Up

[Intro]
(…yeah…)
Sometimes I don’t even recognize myself no more…
Look in the mirror… feel like I’m fading…

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[Chorus]
If I don’t wake up, tell ‘em I tried
Fought all my demons, just couldn’t survive
Smile on my face, but I’m dying inside
Ain’t nobody see it, I learned how to hide

If I don’t wake up, just let me rest
Carried the world on my back and my chest
I gave ‘em love, they gave me stress
Now I’m just lost… I ain’t found me yet

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[Verse 1]
I been talking to God but I don’t hear back
Maybe I’m too far gone, too deep in the black
Every scar got a story I can’t erase
Every tear feel heavy when it hit my face

I let people in, they just let me down
Now I build these walls, don’t let love around
I’m tired of being strong, I’m weak for real
But nobody care how a broken man feel

I smile in public, cry when alone
Got a house full of love but don’t feel at home
They say “you good?” I just say “I’m straight”
But I been fighting thoughts that I can’t escape

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[Chorus]
If I don’t wake up, tell ‘em I tried
Fought all my demons, just couldn’t survive
Smile on my face, but I’m dying inside
Ain’t nobody see it, I learned how to hide

If I don’t wake up, just let me rest
Carried the world on my back and my chest
I gave ‘em love, they gave me stress
Now I’m just lost… I ain’t found me yet

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[Verse 2]
What if the strong one finally break?
What if the smile just a mask I fake?
What if the love I give never return?
What if I’m just a lesson they had to learn?

I been feeling numb, I can’t even cry
Too many nights I just question “why?”
Why I give my heart just to watch it bleed?
Why I plant love but grow what I don’t need?

And I don’t wanna die… but I don’t feel alive
Just surviving every day, I ain’t really living life
If I disappear, would it change a thing?
Or just another sad song nobody sings…

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[Bridge]
Don’t save me now… I’m too far gone
Been holding pain for way too long
If you love me, just hold me close
Before I turn into a ghost…

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[Final Chorus – Softer / Breaking]
If I don’t wake up… tell ‘em I tried
I swear I fought it… I just got tired…
Smile on my face… tears in disguise…
Nobody knew it… I kept it inside…

If I don’t wake up… just let me sleep…
These wounds I carry cut way too deep…
I gave my soul… they took all of me…
Now I’m just gone… who I used to be…

Soul-Trap (Pain Rap / Melodic Rap)