Man… sometimes I sit in the car and just stare at the wheel,
Thinkin’ ’bout everything I done carried on my back.
People see you smilin’, but they don’t know the nights you ain’t sleep…
They don’t know the prayers you whispered real quiet,
Hopin’ God ain’t forget about you.
But somehow… I’m still here.
Still breathin’.
Still fightin’.
Still tryin’ to figure out why my heart don’t heal right.
Lately I been feelin’ like I’m runnin’ on empty
Tryna pour into people who never pour back into me
I been drownin’ in emotions I don’t talk about
’Cause every time I open up, somebody walkin’ out
I been tryna keep my faith, but it’s hard sometimes
When the ones you love most start switchin’ sides
When the ones you trust deep start tellin’ lies
And the pain hit different when it’s from your tribe
I done carried all this hurt like a badge on my chest
Tryna act like I’m good, but I ain’t been my best
I been prayin’ for a break, just a moment to breathe
But the world keep spinnin’ like it don’t notice me
’Cause my heart don’t heal right, it just beats slow
Tryna stitch up the pieces that I can’t let go
I been walkin’ through the fire with my eyes closed
Hopin’ God gon’ guide me down this broken road
I been hurt so many times I don’t feel the same
Tryna smile through the tears, but it still leave stains
I been searchin’ for myself in the middle of pain
Tryna find who I am when the world feel strange
I remember bein’ young, tryna figure my worth
Feelin’ lost in a world that ain’t treat me first
Had to learn that bein’ strong don’t mean never cry
Sometimes you gotta let it out just to stay alive
I been fightin’ all these demons I ain’t asked to meet
Tryna stand on my own with these shaky feet
Tryna love myself more, but it’s hard to do
When the mirror show a man that been battered and bruised
But I’m still holdin’ on, even when it get rough
Even when the nights long and the days too tough
Even when I feel alone in a room full of love
I remind myself: I’m enough, I’m enough
’Cause my heart don’t heal right, it just beats slow
Tryna stitch up the pieces that I can’t let go
I been walkin’ through the fire with my eyes closed
Hopin’ God gon’ guide me down this broken road
I been hurt so many times I don’t feel the same
Tryna smile through the tears, but it still leave stains
I been searchin’ for myself in the middle of pain
Tryna find who I am when the world feel strange
But you know…
Even a broken heart still beats.
Even a tired soul still wakes up.
And maybe that’s the blessing.
Maybe that’s the proof I ain’t done yet.
Maybe God still got somethin’ for me.
Somethin’ worth all this hurt.
Vybking
