Back On Me

(…yeah…)

Ayy…

They don’t see the weight…

They just see me standing…

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Got the whole world sitting on my back on me

If I fall down, who gon’ catch for me?

I been holding on, but it’s cracking me

Still I smile so it don’t look bad on me

All this pain, I just tuck it deep

Lost myself tryna keep my people eating

If love real, why it feel this weak?

I’m breaking down but it’s all on me…

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I remember nights we was sharing meals

Now I got it, but it don’t feel real

‘Cause the same pain still in my chest

Money came, but it ain’t fix stress

Mama calling, I can hear the hurt

Tryna sound strong but it make it worse

I just tell her “I got everything”

Even when I feel like I’m ‘bout to break

I been working, I don’t get no sleep

Demons talking every time it’s me

All alone with these thoughts at night

Questioning if I’m living life right

I gave everything just to make a way

Now I’m losing pieces of me each day

But I can’t stop, I can’t fold, I won’t

Too many people depending on hope

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Got the whole world sitting on my back on me

If I fall down, who gon’ catch for me?

I been holding on, but it’s cracking me

Still I smile so it don’t look bad on me

All this pain, I just tuck it deep

Lost myself tryna keep my people eating

If love real, why it feel this weak?

I’m breaking down but it’s all on me…

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I done seen what struggle really mean

Empty fridge, broken family dreams

So I promised I’d change the story

Now I’m carrying more than just me

I got scars that I never show

I got tears that I never let go

I got fears that I never speak

‘Cause they need me strong every week

Sometimes I wish I could fall apart

Let it out, let ‘em see my heart

But I built this role, I can’t switch now

I’m the one they believe in now

If I quit, everything collapse

All the weight coming crashing back

So I stand tall even when I’m weak

Even when it’s killing me…

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Don’t ask me if I’m okay…

I been lying every day…

Just to keep the ones I love safe…

I gave my soul… I gave my faith…

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Got the whole world sitting on my back on me

If I fall now, who gon’ stand for me?

I been strong, but it’s draining me

Still I fight so they can breathe

All this pain, yeah it made me bleed

But I turned it into everything they need

If I die, let ‘em say one thing…

“I gave it all… for my family…”