Weight of the Water

I’ve been drownin’ in my thoughts, tryna learn how to swim

Everybody see the smile, they don’t know where I’ve been

Had to lose a couple friends just to find me again

Funny how the closest ones turn to strangers in the end

Mama told me, “Baby boy, you got a storm in your chest”

I been prayin’ every night just to give it a rest

But the world keep spinnin’, and the pain don’t quit

So I carry all this weight like I’m built for this

I done broke down, cried hard, fell on my knees

Tryna figure why the ones I love leave so easily

But every scar on my soul turned a boy to a man

Now I’m standin’ on the hurt like it’s part of the plan

I been walkin’ through the rain with my head held high

Got some tears in my eyes but I still won’t hide

If the world wanna break me, let it go on try

’Cause I done made it through the nights I ain’t think I’d survive

I’m just tryna find peace in a world so cold

Tryna heal from the stories that I never told

But I rise every time like I’m built from gold

Yeah, the weight of the water never sank my soul

I remember bein’ young, heart full of fear

Tryna fight my own thoughts, they was loud in my ear

Had to learn that bein’ strong don’t mean holdin’ it in

Sometimes the bravest thing you do is let the pain begin

Lost love, lost time, lost pieces of me

But I gained somethin’ real when I learned to believe

That the man in the mirror ain’t the boy from before

He done walked through hell and came back wantin’ more

And I know God watchin’ when I’m losin’ my grip

When I’m fallin’ apart, when I’m talkin’ my shit

When I’m fightin’ these demons that I can’t outrun

He remind me every battle made me who I become

I been walkin’ through the rain with my head held high

Got some tears in my eyes but I still won’t hide

If the world wanna break me, let it go on try

’Cause I done made it through the nights I ain’t think I’d survive

I’m just tryna find peace in a world so cold

Tryna heal from the stories that I never told

But I rise every time like I’m built from gold

Yeah, the weight of the water never sank my soul