My time to go

Hey guys, don't feel guilty,

It was just my time to go.

I can see you're all feeling sad,

I can see the tears still flowing

My life's journey ended prematurely

You tried your best to change me

Even when I screamed “I fucking hate me”

You held me and told you love me

I know I caused you sadness,

I know caused you pain,

But Im imprisoned by my demons,

They wouldn't set me free again.

I can feel it all swim through my veins

Feel my lungs fill up with smoke

They took away my freedom,

It took away my choice,

And when they got their hooks in,

Oh you’ll hear it in my voice.

There were times I tried to fight them,

There was a time I nearly won,

But they came back and overpowered me,

I had nowhere left to run.

I’m sorry momma

I’m sorry dad

I’m sorry to my babies

To all my friends have a drink

Take a toke for me

And to my love I’m sorry

I haven't really left you guys,

I am closer than you know,

I will be the whisper in the wind,

I will be everywhere you go.

One day you will all forgive me

One day you will understand

And when your time on earth is done

I will be waiting to take your hand.

This shit is tough

I've fought my emotions,

I've held them deep inside.

I didn't want to face what for so long

I tried to hide.

I've been lost within the dark

For so long I haven’t seen the light.

Holding on to the memory

of a time when things were right.

I've looked upon your face

and I see the sadness in your eyes.

My battle with addiction

I can no longer disguise.

I’m sorry momma

I’m sorry dad

I’m sorry to my babies

To all my friends have a drink

Take a toke for me

And to my love I’m sorry

I've prayed to find the answers

of what I myself must do.

And I've prayed for the strength to fight

Even through the hell I go through.

I've held on for so long,

I watch myself die through the eyes

Of my empty carcass shell

No one can fight this for me

but lords knows how I've tried.

I bet it’s so hard to watch the ones you love

slowly slip away.

Its why I block it out

Numb away the pain

and hold on to yesterday.

I’m sorry momma

I’m sorry dad

I’m sorry to my babies

To all my friends have a drink

Take a toke for me

And to my love I’m sorry

I don't have all the answers

or the power to save my soul.

Im broken, lost and lonely,

I know now that drugs will never make you whole.

This fight is mine and mine alone

no matter what you do,

They can’t save you.

The only one who can

is you.

I’m sorry momma

I’m sorry dad

I’m sorry to my babies

To all my friends have a drink

Take a toke for me

And to my love I’m sorry