Numb in the Fire

Verse 1

I learned the heat before I learned the light

Every touch a spark, every spark a fight

You said it’d fade, but it never did

Now I flinch at love like a guilty kid

Ash on my hands, but I still reach out

For something real in a world of doubt

Every scar’s just proof I stayed too long

In a place that taught me pain was strong

Pre-Chorus

I hear my heartbeat, but it don’t feel mine

Like I’m out of step, always half a line

Chorus

I feel everything, it’s too much to hold

Like a fire in my veins, burning ice cold

I’m screaming inside, but I don’t make a sound

Somehow I’m lost while I’m still around

Every cut, every word, every ghost I’ve known

Built a hollow heart that I call my home

Yeah, I’m breaking down, but I won’t let it show

I feel everything… but I feel nothing though

Verse 2

I remember when it used to hurt clean

Now it’s tangled up in what it all means

Every memory’s a double-edged blade

Cuts me open, but the pain won’t stay

I laugh at jokes I don’t understand

Try to feel alive, but I just pretend

Like a ghost in skin that don’t quite fit

I’m here, I exist… but that’s about it

Pre-Chorus

I see the colors, but they all look gray

Like they faded out when you walked away

Chorus

I feel everything, it’s too much to hold

Like a fire in my veins, burning ice cold

I’m screaming inside, but I don’t make a sound

Somehow I’m lost while I’m still around

Every cut, every word, every ghost I’ve known

Built a hollow heart that I call my home

Yeah, I’m breaking down, but I won’t let it show

I feel everything… but I feel nothing though

Bridge

If I shut it off, would I disappear?

Or just lose the only proof I’m here?

‘Cause the pain’s the only thing that’s true

When I don’t feel it, I don’t feel you

So I stand in the flames just to feel alive

Even if it burns, even if I die

A little more each time I try

Final Chorus

I feel everything, it’s tearing me apart

Like a wildfire raging through my heart

But I’m frozen still in the afterglow

Where the highs don’t reach and the lows don’t go

Every tear I cry just dries on stone

In a body I swear I don’t own

Yeah, I’m breaking down, but nobody knows

I feel everything…

But I feel nothing though

Outro

So I’ll wear these scars like they’re all I’ve got

Proof I’m alive… even when I’m not