Hate

*[Verse 1 - 0:30]*

I learned your name in a room full of light

Now I whisper it to darkness every night

You said "stay" like you meant it to be true

I believed you like I used to believe in you

*[Pre-Chorus - 1:10]*

And I keep picking up the phone

Just to hear the dial tone

'Cause silence sounds a lot like you leaving again

*[Chorus - 1:30]*

It's hate and trust living in the same bed

Hate that I still want you, trust that you're already gone

I curse your ghost for haunting me

Then pray it stays till morning

It's hate and trust, and I don't know which one is stronger

*[Verse 2 - 2:10]*

We built a home out of almost and maybe

Told ourselves that broken still counts as maybe

I memorized the way you said "I'm fine"

Now I hear the lie in every word of mine

*[Pre-Chorus - 2:50]*

And I keep driving past your street

Just to feel my heart skip

Like it used to when you were waiting at the door

*[Chorus - 3:10]*

It's hate and trust living in the same bed

Hate that I still want you, trust that you're already gone

I drink to forget the taste of you

Then cry 'cause water tastes like you too

It's hate and trust, and I'm drowning in both

*[Bridge - 3:50]*

_Music strips back to just vocals + piano_

If love is a wound, then why do I keep touching it?

If trust is a joke, then why am I still waiting for the punchline?

I hate that you taught me how to need someone

And I trust that you'll never come back to unteach me

*[Final Chorus - 4:20]*

It's hate and trust living in the same chest

Hate that I still call it love, trust that it was all a test

And I failed it

God, I failed it

It's hate and trust... and I'm still choosing both

*[Outro - 4:50]*

_Piano fades, one last line_

I hate that I trust you to hurt me...

And you never let me down.