River Flows beat
Hey, you guys, don't feel guilty,
It was just my time to go.
I can see you're all feeling sad,
I can see the tears still flow.
My life's journey ended prematurely
You tried your best to change me
Even when I yelled “I fucking hate me”
I know I caused you sadness,
I know caused you pain,
But I was captured by these demons,
They wouldn't set me free again.
I can feel it all swim through my vein
They took away my freedom,
They took away my choice,
And when they got their hooks in,
You could hear it in my voice.
There were times I tried to fight them,
There was a time I nearly won,
But they came back and overpowered me,
I had nowhere left to run.
I haven't really left you guys,
I am closer than you know,
I will be the whisper in the wind,
I will be everywhere you go.
One day you will all forgive me
One day you will understand
And when your time on earth is done
I will be waiting to take your hand.
I've fought with my emotions,
I've held them deep inside.
I didn't want to face what for so long
you've tried to hide.
I've been lost within the dark
for so long I've seen no light.
Holding on to the memory
of a time when things were right.
I've looked upon your face
and seen the sadness in your eyes.
The battle of addiction
you no longer can disguise.
I've prayed to find the answers
of what I myself must do.
And I've prayed for the strength to fight
through the hell that I go through.
I've held on for so long,
but I can no longer watch you die.
I cannot fight this for you,
but lords knows how I've tried.
It's just so hard to watch the ones you love
slowly slip away.
That's why I just blocked it out
and held on to yesterday.
I don't have all the answers
or the power to save your soul.
You're broken, lost and lonely,
and I cannot make you whole.
This fight is yours and yours alone
no matter what I do,
For I cannot save you.
The only one who can
is you.