Kiss me goodbye

River Flows beat

Hey, you guys, don't feel guilty,

It was just my time to go.

I can see you're all feeling sad,

I can see the tears still flow.

My life's journey ended prematurely

You tried your best to change me

Even when I yelled “I fucking hate me”

I know I caused you sadness,

I know caused you pain,

But I was captured by these demons,

They wouldn't set me free again.

I can feel it all swim through my vein

They took away my freedom,

They took away my choice,

And when they got their hooks in,

You could hear it in my voice.

There were times I tried to fight them,

There was a time I nearly won,

But they came back and overpowered me,

I had nowhere left to run.

I haven't really left you guys,

I am closer than you know,

I will be the whisper in the wind,

I will be everywhere you go.

One day you will all forgive me

One day you will understand

And when your time on earth is done

I will be waiting to take your hand.

I've fought with my emotions,

I've held them deep inside.

I didn't want to face what for so long

you've tried to hide.

I've been lost within the dark

for so long I've seen no light.

Holding on to the memory

of a time when things were right.

I've looked upon your face

and seen the sadness in your eyes.

The battle of addiction

you no longer can disguise.

I've prayed to find the answers

of what I myself must do.

And I've prayed for the strength to fight

through the hell that I go through.

I've held on for so long,

but I can no longer watch you die.

I cannot fight this for you,

but lords knows how I've tried.

It's just so hard to watch the ones you love

slowly slip away.

That's why I just blocked it out

and held on to yesterday.

I don't have all the answers

or the power to save your soul.

You're broken, lost and lonely,

and I cannot make you whole.

This fight is yours and yours alone

no matter what I do,

For I cannot save you.

The only one who can

is you.