I Hoped for This

[Intro]
Love me for who I am
Not for the money I make
That was a big mistake
You just lost your chance,
Love me for who I am
Not for the money I make
That was a big mistake
You just lost your chance
[Verse]
I had different plans growing up, wanted to make friends, shouldn’t be hard enough, but it felt impossible, trying to find someone to love me, I almost felt unstoppable, but when it came down to it, I couldn’t even find a soul, too hear me through it
Was I asking to much? Was I just stuck, knowing there was such, a friend to find, he or she was out there, waiting for time, to push us together, I wanted them to be mine, but I couldn’t stop to think, was this really for me, or do I just need a shrink
My life with no friends, maybe buddies, not really people I could call when it felt like the end, it really depends on what I see, maybe I shouldn’t judge, all I saw was the cover, didn’t really dig deep, but I’m ok, I hope that’s true, we will just see, at the end of the day
[Chorus]
Love me for who I am
Not for the money I make
That was a big mistake
You just lost your chance
I keep my eyes glued to the plate
Dreaming about my fate
Wish I knew what are the plans
[Verse]
I hoped and prayed, believing in my god, that maybe someday, I’ll find who I am looking for, hopefully I could see them, cracking this door, slightly open to see them inside, but all I saw was a mirror behind the blinds, so I look, just to see myself, understand all my feelings where dealt, god opened up my vision, all I saw, is what I was missing, god had my back since the beginning, I just couldn’t even see, or understand the mission
So now I understand, I wasn’t looking for a friend, I just needed god, he held out the biggest hand, I can’t believe I was so blind, maybe I do need glasses, sorry I make jokes when I’m nervous, this ain’t a diversion
If you ever felt alone, couldn’t find the one, just know god is with you, from the beginning till you’re done, he’ll accept you, no matter what you did, he’ll free you from sin, all you got to do, is to believe in him, ask for forgiveness, from all the time, you done dirty business, god understands why, he is your witness, so never forget, god takes steps and never misses
[Chorus]
Love me for who I am
God is on my plate
I was the big mistake
He gave me a second chance
To understand my mistakes
To hold me up too higher stakes
God is my true and only friend

Rap, sad, depressing