Depression

Yeah…

Late nights, ceiling fan talkin’ to me,

Thoughts loud, silence feel like it’s mockin’ me

Smile on my face but my mind in a coffin seat,

Tryna breathe but this weight keep coughin’ me

Depression got a voice and it sound like mine,

Sayin’ “You tired, just quit, you runnin’ outta time”

I stare at the mirror like, “Who you supposed to be?”

Same eyes, different soul, broken hopes in me

I think about the exit when the pain won’t pause,

But I think about the people who would blame themselves

I think about the nights I almost lost the fight,

And the mornings I woke up just surprised I’m alive

Suicidal thoughts come knockin’, I don’t let ’em in,

I tell ’em “Sit outside,” I’m already in a war within

I been losin’ battles but I ain’t lose the war,

Every scar on my heart just prove I’m more

I’m tired of pretendin’ I’m okay for the crowd,

I’m scream-cryin’ inside but too afraid to be loud

If you feel like this too, you ain’t weak, you human,

Sometimes survivin’ itself is the bravest movement

I ain’t sayin’ it’s easy, I ain’t sayin’ it’s quick,

Some days livin’ feel heavier than death ever did

But I’m still here breathin’, so I guess that mean

There’s a reason for the pain they ain’t showed me yet

So if tomorrow come, I’ma face it again,

One heartbeat at a time, one day, one pen

And if I fall apart, I’ma build it back slow,

’Cause even broken souls still deserve to grow