The beginning of everything

Yeah…

Since three years old, man…

It’s been nothin’ but pain.

Pain in my head, pain in my heart,

Been carryin’ this weight since the world went dark,

Things I seen, things I felt, left marks,

Turned every spark of hope into broken parts.

Every dream I built just fell apart,

Everything I love gets ripped from the start,

Tried to smile through it, play my role,

But this mask I wear’s got cracks in the soul.

Since I was three, I’ve been seein’ too much,

Taught not to cry, never lean, never trust,

Now I’m numb, emotions rust,

Heart’s gone silent — it’s ashes and dust.

More pain, more pain, even more pain,

Can’t tell if I’m alive or just my chain,

Everything I’ve touched fades away again,

This ain’t life — it’s a pain overdose in my veins.

More pain, more pain, overdose on my mind,

Lost myself — can’t rewind time,

No more tears, no more signs,

I’m dead inside but I’m still tryna rhyme.

I’m twenty-three, feelin’ sixty inside,

Bitter with the years that I barely survived,

Every memory burns, yeah, it cuts deep,

I pray at night, but I barely sleep.

My mask is slippin’, truth’s exposin’,

Fake smiles crack when emotions frozen,

No more joy, no more devotion,

Just an ocean of pain in constant motion.

Tryna act okay, but I’m losin’ the act,

Every time I heal, it just drags me back,

No more feelings, no more faith,

Just the ghost of a kid that pain replaced.

So don’t tell me to smile, I been through hell,

I died on the inside, but I wear it well,

You see the calm, I feel the storm

My soul’s been cold since the day I was born.

More pain, more pain, even more pain,

Can’t tell if I’m alive or just my chain,

Everything I’ve touched fades away again,

This ain’t life — it’s a pain overdose in my veins.

More pain, more pain, overdose on my mind,

Lost myself — can’t rewind time,

No more tears, no more signs,

I’m dead inside but I’m still tryna rhyme.

Yeah…

I ain’t lookin’ for pity, I just bleed in these notes,

Pain overdose — that’s the life I wrote.

Since three years old, that’s all I’ve known,

Pain built the man, but it broke the soul.