I mean well

Yeah…

Look

If I die tonight, just know I meant well

Had heaven in my heart but I lived in hell

Too many thoughts got my mind in jail

I smile in public but I’m fightin’ myself

I been talkin’ to God but the line keep breakin’

Every step forward feel like time still waitin’

I ain’t ask for this pain but I learned to take it

Turned tears to ink, now my soul got pages

Late nights, phone glow, room get quiet

Heart beat loud when the world go silent

Everybody say “you strong, you got it”

But strength get heavy when you never drop it

I been carryin’ weight they don’t ever see

Tryna be everything they expect of me

I don’t wanna die, I just wanna breathe

But the pressure got a grip on my chest, no peace

I got love for the ones that doubted me

And scars from the ones that was proud of me

Life move fast, I’m surrounded by doubt

Tryna find my way out, tryna find my route

If I fall tonight, don’t glorify pain

I was chasin’ some hope in the middle of rain

Still here, still fightin’, still callin’ my name

Still learnin’ how to live, still breakin’ these chains

If I die tonight, just know I tried

Put my heart on the beat, let my truth collide

Every bar just a piece of what’s stuck inside

I ain’t perfect, I’m human—I’m still alive

So I talk to the stars when the world feel fake

Tell my demons relax, I ain’t ready to break

I’m still here, still standin’, still wide awake

If I die tonight… let it not be at night I just wanna be alright