[Verse 1]
Every night I fold my hands together,
Not asking for you to come back home.
I don’t pray for second chances,
I pray to finally leave you alone.
God, erase the way you smiled,
The sound of your voice when you said my name.
Make you just another chapter,
Not the fire that still burns my veins.
[Pre-Chorus]
Everybody says time heals,
So why’s my heart still keeping score?
[Chorus]
I pray to hate you.
I pray to wake up and forget you existed.
Like you’re just a face in a crowd,
A bad dream that I somehow outlived.
But every morning I reach for my phone,
Tell myself, “Don’t do it,” then I do.
Send another text into the silence,
Then get mad when it don’t come through.
I don’t pray you’ll love me.
I pray I stop loving you.
[Verse 2]
It’s embarrassing how hope survives,
Like a weed breaking concrete every time.
One little ringtone could ruin my progress,
One “Hey” could rewind my mind.
I know exactly who you are now,
I know the hurt behind your name.
So why’s my heart still arguing
With what my head knows ain’t gonna change?
[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t want revenge anymore,
I just want peace that finally stays.
[Chorus]
I pray to hate you.
I pray to wake up and forget you existed.
Like you’re just a scar that faded,
Instead of one that keeps splitting.
But every morning I reach for my phone,
Promise this is the last time through.
Send another text into the silence,
Then get mad when it don’t come through.
I don’t pray you’ll miss me.
I pray I stop missing you.
[Bridge]
Maybe hating you ain’t really what I need.
Maybe I just want the part of me
That didn’t wait for crumbs,
Didn’t confuse pain for love,
Didn’t keep knocking on a locked-up door
Wondering what I was worthy for.
[Final Chorus]
So tonight I’ll pray again,
Not for you to change your mind.
Not for justice. Not for answers.
Just to get my own heart back this time.
And if tomorrow I don’t think of you,
That’ll be my miracle come true.
I won’t need your name to disappear…
Just the ache that keeps leading me here.
I don’t pray you’ll come back.
I pray one day…
I won’t remember wanting you to.
