They tell me

They tell me...

Your eyes are beautiful !

They sparkle in the light !

Your smile is infectious !

When you walk in, you light up the room!

The thing is ...

I don't see it,

I can't feel it,

It must not be true.

They tell me...

You're funny!

You're sweet !

You're too kind !

People like you around !

Its all in your mind !

You're easy to talk to, you listen so well !

But I dont know why, is this my own hell?

Dont be silly !

Just be yourself !

people love you !

So love yourself !

Thats what people say ,

my response is "ok"

I give and I give ,

soon I'll have nothing left.

Whatever the need.

Even the shirt of my back ,

Hell I already have.

Its ok,

I'll go on,

bury my feelings,

hide them in songs,

Noone would notice if I slipped away,

just as long as i know they are ok.

I wanna be selfish,

I wanna say no,

Making people happy,

making sure they're alright ,

it gives me a feeling,

it gives me value in life,

just as long as they smile,

I'll keep doin what I can .

Give your head a shake girl,

Get out while you can!

If I say that

I want, I feel or I need,

too much can change ,

thats no thought ,

Thats memory.

People say they want truth

but reality is

Most people can't handle it.

It makes things akward and uncomfortable too, changes their view or how they see you.

I don't, I can't

show vulnerability

so I bite my tongue

as long as theyre happy.

When everything else has been said and done, they can go on thinking they have just won,

Maybe one day they'll see value in me,

maybe then, just maybe I can feel seen.

It may be too late , it may be my fate,

Some days I don't know, how much more I can take.

So when's it my turn? Who's looking out for me?

There's only one I can count on , and of course that is ME!