Letting You Go Before I Fade

I feel the winter in my bones, the kind that never leaves.

Doctors whisper quiet truths I’m too afraid to breathe.

You’re standing in the doorway, trying hard to stay brave.

But I see the future in your eyes — the one I can’t be saved.

And I hate that you’re still fighting for a ghost that’s fading slow.

I love you more than life itself — that’s why I have to let you go.

So run before I break you, love.

Don’t wait for me to drown.

I’m slipping through the shadows now,

I won’t drag you down.

If grief is what’s ahead of you,

I’d rather face it on my own.

I’m dying, but I swear to you —

I’m setting you free before I’m gone.

Your hands are shaking on my chest, like you’re holding back the end.

I wish I had a lifetime left to be your lover, not your burdened friend.

But every breath is borrowed time, every heartbeat feels like sand.

I’m fading like a photograph you’re trying not to understand.

If love means keeping you safe, then I’ll walk this road alone.

I’ll carry all the pain myself so you can finally go home.

Don’t remember me in hospital light — remember me alive.

Remember how I held you close, how I swore you’d survive.

So run before I break you, love.

Don’t watch me disappear.

I’m leaving you the best of me,

The part that kept you near.

And when the night is quiet, love,

Know this was all for you.

I’m dying, but I’m grateful —

Because loving you was true.

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