[INTRO – ambient + distant guitar]
(LOW PAD)
(FAINT GUITAR)
…yeah…
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[VERSE 1 – quiet, detached]
I don’t sleep, I just lay about
Wide awake till the noise burns out
Every thought’s like a loaded gun
And I don’t trust what I’ve become
So I take just a little more
Till I don’t feel it like before
Not enough to fix what’s wrong
Just enough to feel gone
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[PRE-CHORUS – slight lift]
I know this isn’t healing me
But it keeps me from breaking
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[CHORUS – emotional release]
[SUNG]
I don’t wanna feel better
I just don’t wanna feel
Just enough to go numb
Just enough to be still
If I face it, I’ll shatter
If I don’t, I’ll disappear
So I take just enough
To keep me outta here
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[RIFF – subtle]
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[VERSE 2 – deeper]
Everything becomes a blur again
Like I’m living outside my own skin
I hear my voice but it don’t sound right
Like it’s someone else’s words inside
I say I’m fine, and I play it off
But it’s barely making the voices stop
Every step feels so paper thin
Like I’m about to cave within
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[PRE-CHORUS]
I know this won’t save me now
But it has to help somehow
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[CHORUS – bigger]
I don’t wanna feel better
I just don’t wanna feel
Just enough to go numb
Just enough to be still
If I face it, I’ll shatter
If I don’t, I’ll disappear
So I take just enough
To keep me outta here
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[BRIDGE – stripped, raw]
(CLEAN GUITAR ONLY)
When it wears off, they get louder
Every voice shouting, taking power
All the weight comes crashing in
All the hurt, my pain, my sins
(WHISPER)
…I just want this to go away…
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[BUILD – rising tension]
(DRUMS ENTER SLOWLY)
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[FINAL CHORUS – full emotion]
[FULL BAND]
I DON’T WANNA FEEL BETTER!
I JUST DON’T WANNA FEEL!
JUST ENOUGH TO GO NUMB!
JUST ENOUGH TO BE STILL!
IF I FACE IT, I’LL SHATTER!
IF I DON’T, I’LL DISAPPEAR!
SO I TAKE JUST ENOUGH—
TO KEEP ME OUTTA HERE!
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[OUTRO – empty]
(AMBIENT FADE)
Just enough…
(SILENCE)
Phantom_X
