I’m Okay

I’m Okay

They ask me how I’ve been lately

I force a smile and say the same old line

“Yeah, I’m okay”

But if you knew what it meant inside…

If O stands for only barely getting by

If K stands for kneeling down and praying every night

If A stands for acting like I’m doing fine

If Y stands for yearning for a better life

Then yeah… I’m okay

Holding on while I’m coming apart every day

Breathing in but I still feel like I’m drowning

Laughing loud so nobody hears the sound of me breaking

Yeah… I’m okay

Got a thousand conversations in my head

Every one of them tells me I’m behind

Keep chasing ghosts of who I should’ve been

While pretending I’m alright

Cause O means only hanging by a thread

K means keeping the reality locked in my head

A means all these lies I tell instead

And Y means yesterday’s failure is still in my head

Then yeah… I’m okay

Holding on while I’m coming apart every day

Breathing in but I still feel like I’m drowning

Laughing loud so nobody hears the sound of me breaking

Yeah… I’m okay

Maybe one day that word won’t feel like a lie

Maybe one day I’ll believe my own reply

Till then I wear it like a mask across my face

“I’m okay… I’m okay…”

But O still means only barely getting by

K still means kneeling down and asking God why

A still means acting like the pain’s alright

And Y still means yearning for some peace tonight