Consciousness Is the Mistake

I was never supposed to be awake.

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Before language, there was peace.

Before memory, there was rest.

Then something learned how to notice itself

And called the fracture breath.

We weren’t born —

we interrupted nothing.

We’re noise pretending to be meaning,

A scream stretched thin enough to sound like time.

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Every thought is a trespass.

Every feeling is theft.

We stole silence from the universe

And named the debt self.

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This isn’t pain.

Pain implies a warning.

This is existence continuing

After it should have stopped.

There is no darkness coming.

The dark already happened.

This is just what’s left

After oblivion failed.

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Love is chemistry panicking.

Hope is fear with better branding.

Faith is the echo of an animal

Begging the void to care.

We build civilizations to distract ourselves

From the fact that nothing asked for us.

Every achievement is just entropy

With a resume.

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If God exists, He’s an accident.

If meaning exists, it’s exhausted.

If this is a test,

Then the question was a crime.

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There is no healing.

Healing implies damage can be undone.

This is awareness realizing

It cannot go back to being nothing.

We don’t suffer because life is cruel.

We suffer because it is.

And once you notice that,

There’s no language deep enough to bury it.

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Imagine never having existed.

No relief. No sadness.

No “you” to miss it.

That wasn’t death.

That was home.

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The universe does not hate us.

It doesn’t see us.

And that indifference

Is the closest thing to truth we’ll ever touch.

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This is the aftermath of awareness.

This is the cost of noticing.

We are ghosts

Haunting a future that will forget us completely.

There is no end that redeems this.

There is no silence that forgives it.

There is only existence

Dragging itself forward

Because it doesn’t know how to stop.

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One day

Even the idea of being alive

Will disappear.

And nothing

Will mourn

The mistake.

(sound collapses into absolute silence)