Second chance

I replay that night I threw in the towel. The hallway call light would always break in. The patient in the next room would always be screeching and weeping. That and knowing I had to learn everything over. I was heated and hated where I was that is the night I took my own life. I saw what on the what was on the other side. I earned my ticket to hell I turned my back on God and no I didn't get burned. I was in a dark and lonely place with no love what so ever I felt the despair I was on my hands and knees I was in 4 inches of water bawling and crying. Looking through the storm clouds I saw this giant being made up of light. I pleaded with God for another try at life. I know now every moment every second is a great gift. I learned to treasure every day because it could be my last. Ever since I have never had a bad day. I hope you believe me when I say that is a place you don't want to be. I got to be brought with the A.E.D pads. That is my second birthday. I was 23 but I finally knew there was someone watching me from up there.