First real love

When I first met you, I lied to myself saying I wouldn’t open up to you. But there I was deleting the same app where I met you right after we decided to chat somewhere else. I didn’t wanna believe that you could make me happy. I was in a very bad place but your heart was a home I never had before. I fell for you right there and then. Overall you didn’t just love me for my personality, you loved me from outside - the ugliest part of me I believed. No one accepted me but there you were teaching me how to love myself the way you love me. But until today I believe that I can’t love myself as much as you love me. I truly became the happiest person alive. It’s true that I tested you but that was only because I was scared you’d turn out like the others.

You made me a better person. A version of me I wished I could’ve change but you were there to help me. I really appreciate the moment I met you. That moment I swiped right and answered your message and didn’t delete it like the rest. If god has ever approached me to happiness, it was that moment, and I am not exaggerating. I thought I loved before, but I was blind, those men weren’t men, they were statues. I only love when you showed me what it was, and I just wished I met you sooner. Until today I’m learning to become better, but traumas don’t go away that fast. Thank you for showing me that the world isn’t as bad as I thought. Thank you for showing me that love does exist and it’s not toxic. Thank you for showing me that I am worthy useful, and thank you for loving me in ways no one has ever done before. I fell in love when I saw a person like me exist, I just had to wait for it. That’s the type I needed in my life. And you are worth it too. I love you!

Happy, in love