(Verse 1)
There’s a reason my name is desolate,
I’ve been carrying pain, and I can’t get rid of it. (mh…)
Every smile I show is counterfeit, (yeah…)
Acting like I’m fine but I ain’t over it.
Walking through storms with a cracked umbrella,
Nights get heavy and the air gets colder. (aye…)
Fighting all the shadows that I made myself,
Trying to fix my heart without asking for help.
All this weight on my chest got me feeling small,
But I still stand up every time that I fall. (yeah…)
(Pre-Chorus)
And even when I’m breaking slow, (mh…)
There’s a part of me that won’t let go.
A voice inside me speaks—
“Lowest lows build the strongest me.” (yeah…)
(Chorus)
I’m hurting, but I’m holding on, (aye…)
Even when the nights feel long. (mhmm)
Tears on my face but I stay strong,
Yeah I’m breaking, but that’s how I move on. (yeah…)
I’m learning the dark don’t last,
Every shadow fades, every storm blows past.
Scars on my heart but healing fast—
Yeah, I’m hurting… but it won’t last. (won’t last…)
(Verse 2)
Drowning in the “maybe’s” and the “why’d it go wrong,”
Trying to rewrite the past with another sad song. (yeah…)
Running from myself like I can’t be found,
But everywhere I go, I take the same breakdown. (mh…)
Told my friends “I’m good,” but that ain’t true,
Light leaks through every crack I push through.
I ain’t perfect, but I’m trying again, (aye…)
Turning all my losses into something I can spend.
Every tear I shed is a chapter I close,
Every bruise on my heart is the proof I rose. (mh…)
(Verse 3)
I’ve been learning to breathe through the pain,
Letting go of the ghosts that call my name. (mh…)
The nights still haunt me, but I face the storm,
Every broken piece slowly starts to form.
I’m rising from shadows that used to define,
Finding the light even when it don’t shine. (yeah…)
I’m still lost sometimes, but I’m moving slow,
Learning from the hurt and letting it go. (aye…)
(Chorus)
I’m hurting, but I’m holding on, (aye…)
Even when the nights feel long.
Tears on my face but I stay strong, (yeah…)
Yeah I’m breaking, but that’s how I move on.
I’m learning the dark don’t last,
Every shadow fades, every storm blows past.
Scars on my heart but healing fast—
Yeah, I’m hurting… but it won’t last. (mh…)
(Bridge)
Maybe I had to lose my way (mh…)
Just to find the strength to stay.
Maybe all these nights alone (alone…)
Built me a safer home.
(Spoken Outro)
You know…
I used to think being broken meant I was done.
But it don’t work like that.
Pain don’t stop you… it shows you who you are.
And yeah, I fall apart, but I’m still here.
Still trying.
One day I’ll look back at the darkness
and realize it taught me how to shine.
I’m still becoming something.
Just… give me time.
desolate