Quiet In The Chaos

[Verse 1]
I been snappin’ on the small stuff
Yellin’ at the kids like they grown, that’s messed up
See they flinch when my footsteps hit
I’m the storm in the house that I said I’d fix
Hold it all in till the bottle bursts
Say I’m fine, but the silence hurts
I ain’t talkin’, just locked in my head
Whole lotta “I’m sorry” that I left unsaid
[Chorus]
I’m sorry for the days I went dark on you
Sorry for the weight that I put on you
Sorry for the ways that I hide my pain
You ain’t meant to carry all my shame
I’ve been angry ‘cause I hate myself
Feelin’ helpless, push away my help
But I wanna do right, I wanna get better
I just wanna be happy, learn how to love better
[Verse 2]
They just want a dad who can laugh again
But I’m stuck in the past, talkin’ trash to a friend
In the mirror, that’s me, I’m the one I fight
Throw words like knives when I’m losin’ sight
I’m afraid of the tears, so I raise my voice
But that ain’t strength, that’s a scared little boy
I see their eyes, see the hurt I cause
Hands on my face like “God, I’m lost”
[Chorus]
I’m sorry for the days I went dark on you
Sorry for the weight that I put on you
Sorry for the ways that I hide my pain
You ain’t meant to carry all my shame
I’ve been angry ‘cause I hate myself
Feelin’ helpless, push away my help
But I wanna do right, I wanna get better
I just wanna be happy, learn how to love better
[Bridge]
So I’m takin’ this breath, takin’ this step (yeah)
Tryna say the words that I always kept
“Kids, it ain’t you, it’s the war in me”
I’m fightin’ for the man that you deserve to see
Gonna mess up, but I’ll own my wrongs
Turn them sorries into changed-up songs
From a house full of fear, to a home with trust
From a heart full of hate, to a heart that loves
[Chorus]
I’m sorry for the days I went dark on you
Sorry for the weight that I put on you
Sorry for the ways that I hide my pain
You ain’t meant to carry all my shame
I’ve been angry ‘cause I hate myself
Feelin’ helpless, push away my help
But I’m gonna do right, I’m gonna get better
I just wanna be happy, learn how to love better

rap, Intimate boom-bap hip-hop with male vocals; warm filtered piano loop over a dusty, head-nod drum pocket, subtle sub-bass gluing it together. Verses close and confessional, almost whispered, with tight doubles on key emotional phrases. Hook opens with airy gospel-tinged harmonies, soft pad swells, and a slightly bigger snare, lifting from regret into fragile hope. Final chorus strips back to piano and voice for a raw, human ending., hip hop, happy, sad