Track · Apr 4, 2026 · English

Backseat To My Own Life

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2:46

Language

English

Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Snap again

I see their eyes

Little faces freeze

Like, “who is this guy?”

I was just tired

Now I’m a storm

Words like knives

Cut through their calm

Sink in the sofa

Phone in my hand

Scroll to escape

But I’m stuck in the sand

Used to laugh easy

Used to feel light

Now I’m a ghost

At my own bedside

[Chorus]

I hate that I’m raising my voice at my kids

Then I’m praying they forget what I did

Miss being happy, miss feeling wanted

My own reflection got me haunted

I’m losing myself while I’m trying to guide

Smiling in photos, but broken inside

I just wanna hold them and learn how to live

I just wanna be better than this

[Verse 2]

You turn your back

Say “I’m just tired”

But I feel the distance

Like a cold, thin wire

We used to talk

In the dark, on the floor

Now it’s “goodnight”

And a half-closed door

Hands barely touch

When we pass in the hall

You say “I’m fine”

But I don’t feel at all

I’m scared you’re staying

Just for the bills

Scared I’m a burden

You carry uphill

[Chorus]

I hate that I’m raising my voice at my kids

Then I’m praying they forget what I did

Miss being happy, miss feeling wanted

My own reflection got me haunted

I’m losing myself while I’m trying to guide

Smiling in photos, but broken inside

I just wanna hold you and learn how to live

I just wanna be better than this

[Bridge]

I don’t want apologies

I want a chance

To breathe, reset

Rewrite this stance

May I fail softer? (yeah)

May I choose grace?

Kneel to their level

Look them straight in the face

Say “I’m so sorry

You don’t deserve that

You deserve safety

You deserve dad”

[Chorus]

I hate that I’m raising my voice at my kids

Then I’m praying they forget what I did

Miss being happy, miss feeling wanted

My own reflection got me haunted

But I’m not giving up, I’m still in the fight

Even in pieces, I’ll reach for the light

I just wanna hold us and learn how to live

I’m trying to be better than this (than this)

Style

rapmoodyintrospective hip hop with warm rhodes keysdusty boom-bap drumsand deepround bass; male vocals in a closeconfessional tone. verses stay intimate with sparse piano stabs and subtle vinyl cracklehook blooms with stacked harmonies and a distant choir pad. bridge strips down to keys and bass before the final chorus hits with bigger drums and ad-lib echoesleaving space for raw emotion.hip hophappysad

Prompt

rap, hip hop, hate myself for raising my voice at the kids, miss intimacy, miss being happy, feeling helpless and unwanted. Feeling sad and want to be better.

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Prompt byPLC

GeneratedApr 4, 2026

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