Ride or Die? Was I Not Enough?

Verse 1

We used to say forever like it was a promise signed in blood,

Ride or die, no matter what, no matter who we was.

You swore you couldn’t breathe without my name up on your chest,

Said if I ever walked away your heart would never rest.

I stood ten toes through courtrooms and collect calls,

Through concrete walls and steel doors and silent halls.

Every “this is hard” turned into “I got you, babe,”

I built a world around your name and called it faith.

Pre-Chorus

I gave you everything you ever asked God for and more,

Prayed your freedom to the ceiling, slept on prison floors.

Through thick and thin, I never let you fall—

Now I’m the only one still standing through it all.

We were ride or die, or that’s what you said,

You said you couldn’t live without me in your bed.

But somehow you’re breathing just fine tonight,

While I’m choking on the silence of goodbye.

No more “goodnight, I love you, babe,”

No special kisses, dream of us, no plans we made.

I held you down through every stormy sky—

Tell me when did ride or die just mean goodbye?

I lost my babies fighting battles you couldn’t see,

Lost my job trying to keep you free.

They used my tears and called me “unstable,”

But I was breaking just to keep us faithful.

I swallowed pride, I pawned my peace,

Went without so you could eat.

Every dollar, every breath,

I gave you life from what I had left.

You were my purpose when the world went black,

My reason not to slip too far off track.

I loved you through the worst of you,

Through every lie I knew was true.

I kept the faith when the visits got denied,

When the letters slowed and hope just died.

Through thick and thin, I never ran—

Now I don’t recognize the man.

We were ride or die, or that’s what you said,

You said you couldn’t live without me in your head.

But somehow you’re sleeping just fine tonight,

While I’m replaying every wrong and right.

No more “goodnight, I love you, babe,”

No “special kisses,” no sweet escape.

Our days ain’t how they used to be—

Now it’s one-sided love and memories.

Do you know what a prison wife feels like?

It’s loving a ghost every single night.

It’s holding a hand through bulletproof glass,

Counting the days, watching time pass.

It’s defending your name when they laugh at mine,

It’s staying loyal while you do your time.

It’s losing yourself piece by piece,

Calling it strength, calling it peace.

And when the calls stop coming through,

And “forever” don’t mean me and you—

It’s realizing I gave my all

To someone who can stand tall

Without me at all.

I fought for my mind, for my body, my soul,

Held myself together when I had no control.

After losing my kids, my job, my health—

I still chose you over myself.

Tell me how you live so free

When you once said you couldn’t live without me?

We were ride or die… wasn’t that the vow?

But you’re riding solo now.

I was there through thick and thin,

Through every loss, through every sin.

I gave you everything heaven could send—

A lover, a fighter, your wife and best friend