I should had loved you

Not a night goes by, I don’t see our last fight

Your tears in the dark, wonderin’ if I was right

Swore I’d hold you close, but I let those vows fade

The bed you built for us, I just dug my own grave

Took your love for granted, played it like a game

Touched you when I should’ve stayed, now I’m carryin’ shame

You gave me your heart, I gave you my flaws

Kept hopin’ I’d change, but I broke every law

Pretty young thing, I pulled you in, then I slipped

Cut my own lifeline, now I’m sinkin’ in this

Bridge:

I’m caught in the ghost of the love that we lost

Every choice that I made, now I’m payin’ the cost

Tryna rewrite our story, but the ink’s run dry

How do I face myself when I’m the reason you cried?

Chorus:

I should’ve loved you when the nights felt alive

Gave you my shadows, let your spark fade and die

Now I’m chasin’ regrets, heart heavy like the low end

Wish I could turn back time, bring you close once again

I should’ve loved you, not chased what wasn’t real

Lost in my ego, ignored how you feel

Now I’m callin’ through the void, hopin’ you’re still there

Wish I could turn back time, show you I still care

Verse 2:

This story stays buried, locked tight in my chest

It’s clawin’ to surface, but I’m scared of the mess

Stuck on that last page, where I watched you walk out

You’re writin’ new lines, while I’m drowned in my doubt

Older now, I see the weight of my sins

Tryna fix what I broke, but don’t know where to begin

Your grace cuts me deep, like a blade to my pride

I hate who I was, that’s why I push folks aside

Can’t face your gaze, my reflection’s too raw

You’re too real, too pure, while I’m scarred by my flaws

Your light’s a mirror, shows the truth I can’t take

Too kind to curse me, though I earned all your hate

Bridge:

I’m caught in the ghost of the love that we lost

Every choice that I made, now I’m payin’ the cost

Tryna rewrite our story, but the ink’s run dry

How do I face myself when I’m the reason you cried?

Chorus:

I should’ve loved you when the nights felt alive

Gave you my shadows, let your spark fade and die

Now I’m chasin’ regrets, heart heavy like the low end

Wish I could turn back time, bring you close once again

I should’ve loved you, not chased what wasn’t real

Lost in my ego, ignored how you feel

Now I’m callin’ through the void, hopin’ you’re still there

Wish I could turn back time, show you I still care

Outro:

That night we broke keeps me trapped in my mind

I ran from the truth, left your heart on the line

Your glow cuts the dark, like a flame in the night

It was never your weight, never your fight

If I could, I’d hold you with all that I am

Should’ve loved you back then, not searched for love in a scam

Chasin’ ghosts of myself, when you were all that I had