[Verse]
Your time off is over, now off to work you go,
I hug you like I'm sad, it’s my Oscar-worthy show.
But seven days, that's when I truly thrive,
Without you hurting me or putting me down I feel myself alive.
Then the weekend hits your headed home and my nightmare's back for more,
That fragile freedom now gone, like it was never there before.
You pay the bills, you constantly remind, the kids and me,
And expect me to praise you doesnt the abuse I endure atleast cover part of the fee.
[Chorus]
If you ever took the time to look my way,
Would you even care that I'm in pain?
My laughter has died ; instead I cry caused by your restrain,
I'm losing parts of me and who I was more and more each day.
These constant battles in my head you have caused I pray to god please make them go away?
[Verse]
I can recall a time when I felt you loved me,
I even couldn’t wait long had to have you near.
Now I lay alone hoping for any happiness,
To conquer the thing you taught me and that is fear.
You say the life I'm got was just handed to me
As if it were all just free.
That job was given by god and was harder then yours could ever be.
My nerves are shot, by your hold I feel bound,
No way to leave, just stuck on your mentally abusive playground.
You throw money at me when you or sorry for the bruises you swear you didn’t mean
And promise it’ll never happen again knowing it’s become your normal routine.
[Chorus]
If you ever took the time to look my way,
Would you even care that I'm in pain?
My laughter has died; instead I cry caused by your restrain,
I'm losing parts of me and who I was more and more each day.
These constant battles in my head, please god make them go away!
[Bridge]
You bitch about how it must be nice,
To only pay a few small bills!
I don’t know you tell me how it feels
, when I was the one for years that had to pay
So you could get your pills,
But as of today I know Ill be stronger now, so brace yourself for this fight,
No more silent suffering, living and thinking for myself is my fucking right !
[Chorus]
If you ever took the time to look my way,
Would you even care that I'm feeling so insane?
The more my laughter dies, your control would rise,
Fueled by your own gain.
I'm reclaiming parts of me and who I was more and more each day.
These constant battles in my head, before you know it will just go away!
[Outro]
I'm gonna pull myself up onto my own two feet,
'Cause there's a happy version of myself you'll never get to meet.
And you'll be left behind, left in your own defeat,
Watching me rise while your heart could barely beat.
I've left you now and you'll feel the pain I felt for all these horrible years,
So take a page from my book and go wipe your own fucking tears!
