“Back to Where I Begin”

Album: The Twist From The Past

Back to the street where it started again,

Same block, new faces, old pain in the wind.

New building, same sky, same sun on my skin,

Trying to run from the past, but it pull me back in.

I missed my friends, yeah, the laughter, the games,

But I learned real quick, not everything stays the same.

Adults with their secrets, kids with no shield,

Some smiles hide daggers, some wounds never heal.

They showed us things too early, messed up our view,

Tried to push me into futures I never chose to do.

I ran from the pressure, back to little kids’ joy,

Playing GameCube like I wasn’t once that broken boy.

Back to where I begin,

But I’m still hiding within.

Torn between two worlds I lived in,

One with scars, one with pretend skin.

Will you save me or say goodbye?

I’ve been falling in silence, don’t know why.

Beauty can trick you, but hearts never lie,

Even the brightest smiles can make you cry.

Talked girls, played ball, tried to fit in,

Dragon Ball Z and vitilla with a grin.

But shadows were waiting behind each wall,

A face from the past, I’d still recall.

Then came the game that went too far,

They said we’re a couple like it’s written in stars.

But his eyes said more than the words he spoke,

Took me somewhere dark, and something broke.

I climbed a fence into silence and screams,

Hoping he’d just talk, not shatter my dreams.

But the story repeated, the twist came again,

And I gave in to the storm like a leaf in the rain.

And the kids found out, and they looked away,

Like I was the monster, the one who betrayed.

He told them all, and I lost my place,

Another chapter gone, another vanished face.

Back to where I begin,

But the past finds a way to dig in.

Torn between truth and who they think I’ve been,

Running from the ghost that lives in my skin.

Will you save me or let me die inside?

I’m screaming without a sound, trying to survive.

You never know what someone hides in their eyes,

We all got storms, but we wear different skies.

Now I forgive but I never forget,

Tried to move on, still live with regret.

Beauty can hurt you when kindness is fake,

But real hearts don’t leave destruction in their wake.

So if I disappear and you wonder why,

Know I was just trying not to say goodbye.