Vodka an mistakes

Verse 1

The bar is louder than it needs to be

My phone keeps lighting up

I tell myself I’ll ignore it

I don’t

There’s ice melting in a glass

And I keep pretending that means something

Like time slowing down

Like I’m in control

Verse 2

I said I wouldn’t stay out

I said I wouldn’t drink like this

But the bottle keeps getting passed back

And no one’s counting

My reflection looks tired

But it’s smiling anyway

I convince myself that’s confidence

Or maybe it’s just the room spinning

Chorus

This is vodka

This is bad choices

This is laughing at things that aren’t funny

Because it feels better than thinking

This is calling someone

I promised I wouldn’t call

This is knowing tomorrow will be worse

And doing it anyway

Verse 3

Money disappears

I stop checking the time

I tell strangers parts of my life

I never planned to explain

Someone says my name

Like it means something

Like it’s grounding

But it isn’t

Bridge

There’s always a moment

Right before it goes too far

Where I know I should leave

And I don’t

I tell myself I’ll fix it later

Like later is guaranteed

Outro

The night ends quietly

Not with a crash

Just with silence

And a headache waiting

Vodka

Bad choices

And the same promise

I’ll break again

⸻

If you want it more aggressive, more sad, or more like a rap monologue, I can adjust the tone easily.