Verse 1
The bar is louder than it needs to be
My phone keeps lighting up
I tell myself I’ll ignore it
I don’t
There’s ice melting in a glass
And I keep pretending that means something
Like time slowing down
Like I’m in control
Verse 2
I said I wouldn’t stay out
I said I wouldn’t drink like this
But the bottle keeps getting passed back
And no one’s counting
My reflection looks tired
But it’s smiling anyway
I convince myself that’s confidence
Or maybe it’s just the room spinning
Chorus
This is vodka
This is bad choices
This is laughing at things that aren’t funny
Because it feels better than thinking
This is calling someone
I promised I wouldn’t call
This is knowing tomorrow will be worse
And doing it anyway
Verse 3
Money disappears
I stop checking the time
I tell strangers parts of my life
I never planned to explain
Someone says my name
Like it means something
Like it’s grounding
But it isn’t
Bridge
There’s always a moment
Right before it goes too far
Where I know I should leave
And I don’t
I tell myself I’ll fix it later
Like later is guaranteed
Outro
The night ends quietly
Not with a crash
Just with silence
And a headache waiting
Vodka
Bad choices
And the same promise
I’ll break again
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If you want it more aggressive, more sad, or more like a rap monologue, I can adjust the tone easily.