Where Were You When I Needed You The Most

Suitcase by the door at 4 a.m.

Coffee in a travel cup, you're gone again

You kiss my hair but your eyes are on the clock

You say it's just a couple months, then you’ll stop

Photos on the fridge of foreign sand

Birthday on a screen, you raise your hand

"Doing this for you" through a hotel phone

But I learned how to tie my shoes on my own

Where were you when I needed you most

When the dark felt loud and the room felt cold

You were somewhere chasing something overseas

Saying it was for the money, but it never felt like me

Where were you when I needed you most

Airport souvenirs on my nightstand

Keychains, shirts, wrong size bands

You always knew my country, never knew my friends

You always knew departure, never how it ends

You call it sacrifice

But it sounds like an alibi

Was the distance on the map

Or was it in your mind

Where were you when I needed you most

When the dark felt loud and the room felt cold

You were somewhere chasing something overseas

Saying it was for the money, but it never felt like me

Where were you when I needed you most

I don’t hate you, I just ache

Every promise felt half-awake

If you needed out, you could have said

Instead of leaving echoes in my bed

[low vocal register] "This is all for us" you’d say

But you were always packing, halfway out the frame

Where were you when I needed you most

[whispered vocals] Suitcase by the door, same old scene

I learned to live with what you couldn’t be

You were gone, even holding me close

Where were you when I needed you most