[Verse 1]
You walk in
Like you’ve always been here
All their eyes
Turn and light on you
I’m smiling
Cheeks hurting through the truth
’Cause every joke you tell
Hits the room
[Pre-Chorus]
And I hate that I’m counting
Every time they say your name
I’m clapping
I’m laughing
But I’m burning all the same
If I open my mouth
Will it all sound cruel?
[Chorus]
Who am I around you?
’Cause I don’t know this version of me
Quiet in the corner
Shrinking in a house that I cleaned
If I say I’m hurting
You’ll call it envy
So I swallow my heart
’Til it’s hard to breathe
I’m not jealous
But you make me wonder
Who am I now
Who am I under
[Verse 2]
You fit in
Like the piece I never was
Family frames
Rearrange for you
I bite back
Every almost-honest word
’Cause I know how it sounds
If it’s heard
[Pre-Chorus]
And I hate that I’m scared of
How my own truth might be seen
They’ll paint me as bitter
Just for needing space to bleed
So I laugh a bit louder
Drown the tremor in me
[Chorus]
Who am I around you?
’Cause I don’t know this version of me
Echo on the staircase
Fading where my picture should be
If I say I’m lonely
You’ll call it envy
So I bury my doubt
Under “I’m happy”
I’m not jealous
But you make me wonder
Who am I now
Who am I under
[Bridge]
Maybe there’s room
For more than one heart here
But what if they choose you
And I disappear
I wish I could say
This hurts me
That’s all
Not your fault
Not your fault
Just the fall
[Chorus]
Who am I around you?
’Cause I don’t know this version of me
Walking on eggshells
In the place that once felt like peace
If I say I’m breaking
You’ll call it envy
So I tighten my smile
’Til it cuts my teeth
I’m not jealous
Just afraid you’ll prove
There’s no space for me
If there’s space for you
[Outro]
Who am I now
When they look through me
Who am I now
If I can’t speak
I’m not jealous
I’m just trying to see
If there’s still room here
For the old me (oh)