[Verse 1]
You were there in the kitchen chair
Reading news while I did my hair
All those birthdays
All those nights
But you never once asked if I was alright
[Pre-Chorus]
I learned to smile on command
Bite my tongue
Hide my hands
Told myself
“this must be love”
If it hurts to be enough
[Chorus]
I keep looking for my father in their eyes
Chasing every cold shoulder like a prize
If they pull away
I run in closer
Beg them stay until it’s over
Call the hurting love
Till it feels right
I keep looking for my father in their eyes
[Verse 2]
Let them talk to me like I’m small
Say it’s nothing when they miss my calls
If they’re distant
Then I try twice
Think the silence means I have to sacrifice
[Pre-Chorus]
I confuse mixed signals with care
Think it’s passion when they’re never there
Tell my friends
“no
This is love”
While I crumble for a touch
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
What if love is gentle hands
Someone staying when they can
What if I don’t have to bleed
Just to feel like I’m seen
[Bridge]
I’m relearning what is true
That I never had to earn my value
Looking in the mirror
Tired eyes
And finally
I recognize
[Chorus]