[Verse 1]
I keep a smile
Stitched on my face
You see the jokes
Never the ache
Phone full of names
Nobody rings
I only talk
To ceiling cracks and stupid things
Family shouting
Through paper walls
I turn it louder
Pretend I don't hear at all
You say I'm quiet
I'm just tired
Of being brave
When everything's on fire
[Chorus]
I love you so much it hurts my chest
You’re the one place my heart can rest
But I’m sliding down
And I can’t find ground
Reaching for your hand
You keep stepping back
I’m begging for a map
And you fade to black
I’m screaming in my head
Yet I barely make a sound
I love you so much
While I’m breaking down
[Verse 2]
I tell you “fine”
You take it as truth
You never ask
What “fine” is hiding from you
I need a lifeline
You call it “too much”
So I drown quiet
In the spaces between our touch
Dinner table
Cold like the food
Everyone talking
But never the mood
I walk through halls
Like a haunted guest
I only feel seen
Lying on your chest
[Chorus]
I love you so much it hurts my chest
You’re the one place my heart can rest
But I’m sliding down
And I can’t find ground
Reaching for your hand
You keep stepping back
I’m begging for a map
And you fade to black
I’m screaming in my head
Yet I barely make a sound
I love you so much
While I’m breaking down
[Bridge]
If I fall apart right here
Would you say my name
Would you hold the broken pieces
Or turn away from the shame
I don’t need you to fix me
Just sit in this storm
Just say “I see you”
And mean it once more
[Chorus]
I love you so much it hurts my chest
You’re the one place my heart can rest
But I’m sliding down
And I can’t find ground
Reaching for your hand
Please don’t step back
I’m lost in the dark
And I need you back
I’m whispering in the quiet
Hoping you hear me now
I love you so much
Please don’t shut me out