(Intro – soft, fading piano loop with ambient reverb)
Yeah…It’s like the silence talks louder than anyone ever did And I’m just listenin’ to the hurt…
[Verse 1]
Self-inflicted pain, I wear it like a chain
Back and forth again, stuck inside my brain
Wishin’ I could fix what I can’t explain
Even when I’m broken, I still take the blame
‘Cause I know that hell ain’t just a place
It’s when no one calls and you fade away
Tie the belt, hope I suffocate
Dropped dead, but I still feel hate
They say, “You act like a clown”
But laughed when I was down
Was cryin’ out, they turned around
And now I’m buried in this sound
No trust, no love, just pills and dust
I ain’t lucky, I just didn’t give up
They said, “Move on,” but the pain still cuts
If I disappear, would they give a fuck?
[Hook – melodic, half-sung]
If you wanna leave me here, just go
You were the reason I lost all hope
Stuck in a world where the sun don’t glow
I’ve been bleedin’ slow, just thought you’d know
And if I die tonight, keep it on the low
I ain’t scared of Hell, I already know
This ain’t livin’, I’m a ghost
In this house of pain I host
Verse 2]
Yeah…
I’m sittin’ watchin’ blood dry on my sleeve
Thinkin’ why everyone I love always leaves
If I meant a thing, why’d you make me bleed?
Now all I got’s suicidal dreams
Monsters in me, God don’t speak
Peep on loop while I barely breathe
Blade to skin just to feel a thing
Got a son but I can’t even lead
Used to care, now I don’t
Soul’s for sale, but it’s broke
Don’t call me bro, that’s a joke
Y’all ain’t been here, don’t provoke
Can’t forgive, can’t let go
Too numb for hope, too cold to show
All my friends are ghosts
And I might be next, but I don’t know
Hook – melodic/synth layers building]
If you wanna leave me here, just go
You were the reason I lost all hope
Stuck in a world where the sun don’t glow
I’ve been bleedin’ slow, just thought you’d know
And if I die tonight, keep it on the low
I ain’t scared of Hell, I already know
This ain’t livin’, I’m a ghost
In this house of pain I host
Bridge – auto-tuned/hazy distortion]
(Yeah, yeah)
I’ve been wasted, outta line
Feelin’ vacant, killin’ time
You said love, then you changed your mind
Now I’m lost, just gettin’ high
Blood on tile, lookin’ in my eyes
A shell of me that never dies
A smile I fake, a mask I hide
Don’t worry ’bout me, I’ll be fine (lie)