Dead Eyes

“You don't understand my pain… If you did.. you would've helped a long time ago..-”

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Woke up, same ceiling, new weight

Coffee cold, feel nothin’ on my plate

Mirror shows me movin’, but I swear I ain’t

Just shadows in skin wearin’ my name

Saw a man die, couldn’t cry

Watched her leave, didn’t even ask why

Bills stack up, and the clock don’t pause

I smile on cue like I forgot the cost

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I fake a laugh, say "I’m okay"

But all my colors washed away

I'm tired of living a life of lies

So go ahead and look into my eyes

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I'm livin’ in a body that lies

Breathin’ but it don’t feel right

Walkin’ but I’m not inside

Numb from the tears I dried

Hurt, but I don’t even cry

A ghost in my own life

But if you really want to try

Then look in my cold, Dead Eyes

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Pressure at work, pressure at home

Screens full of death, but I scroll alone

Talk about healing, but the pain’s on loop

Say "take a break"—can’t afford the truth

Heartbreaks, funerals, silent nights

Smiles at dinners, panic at lights

School stress, rent due, dad got sick

No therapy, just music and a bottle to pick

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Every “I’m fine” feels like a sin

Every hug I fake burns my skin

If there’s a God, I hope He sees

The light is gone, but I still breathe

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I'm livin’ in a body that lies

Breathin’ but it don't feel right

Walkin’ but I’m not inside

Numb from the tears I dried

Hurt, but I don’t even cry

A ghost in my own life

But if you really want to try

Then look in my cold, Dead Eyes

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I don’t want to feel gone…

But so much just feels wrong.

Feels like my life's a lie

So I keep my cold, Dead Eyes