Scarred but Still Standing

[Verse 1]
Haven’t slept in a week
Eyes open, see nothing but dark in the ceiling
Hands shake, heart race
Every quiet little thought starts screaming
Yeah I’m mad at the sky
Like “why’d You let me bleed this long?”
Bottle full of questions in my ribcage
Pull the pin and it feels like a bomb
I drag my past like chains
Metal on stone when I walk that road
Every scar on my name
Feels louder than the truth I was told
I don’t feel holy
I feel broken and bored of the pain
Still I’m mumbling a cracked-up prayer
Through my teeth in the middle of the rain
[Chorus]
I’m scarred but I’m still standing (still standing)
Cut deep but I keep chanting (keep chanting)
Yeah my past tried to write my grave
But my faith rewrote my name
I’m lost but I keep walking (keep walking)
Heart rage but my soul talking (oh-oh)
I fall, then I rise again
My faith not my failings say who I am
[Verse 2]
Thoughts rush like a stampede
Every doubt in my head wants war
Hope feels so far
Like a locked-up house with a rusted door
I’ve cussed at the sky
Told Heaven “I’m done, I quit”
But You stay in the fire with a quiet voice
Saying “child, I’m not done yet”
These nights feel endless
Clock hands stuck in the same cold place
But somehow in the heavy of the restless
You slip a little courage in the space
My history’s a horror reel
Yeah, I know where I’ve been
But the nail-scarred hands on my story
Say that’s not where it ends
[Chorus]
I’m scarred but I’m still standing (still standing)
Cut deep but I keep chanting (keep chanting)
Yeah my past tried to write my grave
But my faith rewrote my name
I’m lost but I keep walking (keep walking)
Heart rage but my soul talking (oh-oh)
I fall, then I rise again
My faith not my failings say who I am
[Bridge]
If I can’t see the way
Then God, You be my next small step
If I can’t find the words
Hear the tears that I haven’t shed yet
If anger’s all I’ve got
Take it, turn it into fight
‘Cause I don’t want a perfect mask
I want You in this messed-up life
[Chorus]
I’m scarred but I’m still standing (still standing)
Cut deep but I keep chanting (keep chanting)
Yeah my past tried to write my grave
But my faith rewrote my name
I’m lost but I keep walking (keep walking)
Heart rage but my soul talking (oh-oh)
I fall, then I rise again
My faith not my failings say who I am

rap, Brutal rap-metal hybrid, male vocals, double-kick blast beats and downtuned chugs under half-screamed, half-rapped verses. Hook explodes with gang vocals on the title line, guitars widening and bass locking with a stomping groove. Occasional synth drones under a spoken word bridge; last chorus climbs with octave guitar leads and stacked shouts for a cathartic, faith-anchored finish., sleep, death metal