[Verse 1]
Teeth grit
Jaw wired shut
I’m a storm in a skin suit
Rot in my gut
Old me in the mirror
Red eyes, cheap gin
Saying “one more shot, kid”
“C’mon, let me in”
Claw marks in my memory
Nights I don’t name
Every bruise that I buried
Still bleeds in my brain
I was laughing at the wreck
While I burned every bridge
Now I’m sober on the edge
With a knife to my habits
[Chorus]
I’m dry as a coffin, but I’m still rotting inside
Every day is a war just to stay alive
Miss that poison in my veins, but it buried my mind
I’m trying to be better, but I’m built to divide
I hate who I was
I hate who I am
I’m holding this line
With a shaking hand
[Verse 2]
Woke up to an ashtray
Where my friends used to be
They dipped when the chaos
Stopped coming for free
I used to toast to my damage
Now it toasts to me
All the ghosts that I blacked out
Pulled up a seat
Past me’s in the back row
Cheering for relapse
Screaming “die slow
You ain’t built to adapt”
But I’m done being a punchline
In my own sick joke
So I choke down the urge
While it claws at my throat (yeah)
[Chorus]
I’m dry as a coffin, but I’m still rotting inside
Every day is a war just to stay alive
Miss that poison in my veins, but it buried my mind
I’m trying to be better, but I’m built to divide
I hate who I was
I hate who I am
I’m holding this line
With a shaking hand
[Bridge]
All that rage in my ribs
All that rust on my tongue
I could drown in the past
Or I could cut it and run
So I spit at the bottle
Like it’s spitting on me
If I gotta stay furious
To crawl out, then let it be (hey!)
[Chorus]
I’m dry as a coffin, but I’m still rotting inside
Every day is a war just to stay alive
Miss that poison in my veins, but it buried my mind
I’m trying to be better, but I’m built to divide
I hate who I was
I hate who I am
If anger’s my armor
I’ll use it to stand