Cold, Metal Heart

Cold

Metal

In my hands

Name tag hanging

Plastic band

Fluorescent hum above your bed

Every word I never said

You were softer than these rails

Now it’s boxes

Charts

And scales

Sterile air

A paper gown

I just watch the numbers count down

Cold

Metal heart

Beating under all these wires

I’m tracing every scar

Like I can pull you from the fire

Cold

Metal heart

Why am I the one that’s shaking?

If you break apart

I won’t know who I am waking

I rehearse the brave-face lines

Doctor talk and rigid spines

Coffee cooling in my grip

Time keeps taking little sips

All the jokes we used to trade

Fade beneath the beeping fade

I would bargain

I would burn

For just one more useless turn

Cold

Metal heart

Beating under all these wires

I’m tracing every scar

Like I can pull you from the fire

Cold

Metal heart

Why am I the one that’s shaking?

If you break apart

I won’t know who I am waking

If I could trade this steel for skin (oh)

Fill this room with summer wind

I’d carry every ache you feel

I’d be the one beneath the steel

Cold

Metal heart

Beating under all these wires

I’m tracing every scar

Like I can pull you from the fire

Cold

Metal heart

I’m the one that’s slowly breaking

If you slip too far

Who am I when I’m awakened?