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Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Woke up mad at the mirror
Jaw tight
Eyes red, bitter
Every scar on my skin like scripture
Every sin that I drag gets thicker
Cursing out heaven in a whisper
“Why’d you wire my head like this?”
Every prayer that I throw just flickers
Burns out
Still clenched fists
[Pre-Chorus]
On my knees in a pile of habits
Say I’ll change, then I go and grab it
Same old poison in a brand new glass
Same old promise that’ll never last
[Chorus]
Rusted halo, broken fists
I keep begging while I slit my wrists (yeah)
Screaming “save me” with a mouth of hate
Then I dive right back in the flames I made
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel this way? (hey)
Blaming God for the mess I am
Then I carve the cross in my own damn hands
[Verse 2]
Every “sorry” tastes like static
Dry throat, fake faith, automatic
Bow my head, then I swing like a savage
Leave another soul bruised, call it “habit”
Ask “Father, forgive” while I load that rage
Turn every hurt to another cage
Tear my name out the holy page
Then cry when I choke on the smoke I made
[Pre-Chorus]
I repent, then I hit repeat
Track my faults like a rosary
Every bead just another beat
Of a heart that don’t trust a thing in me
[Chorus]
Rusted halo, broken fists
I keep begging while I slit my wrists
Screaming “save me” with a mouth of hate
Then I dive right back in the flames I made
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel this way?
Blaming God for the mess I am
Then I carve the cross in my own damn hands
[Bridge]
[Beat drops to chugging guitars, vocals half-whispered, half-screamed]
I’m a stain on the stained glass
Dead faith in a dead past
Tear down every last mask
Still can’t outrun that backlash
Why build me like this?
Why stitch me with thorns?
If I’m “made in Your image”
Why was I born so torn? (ugh)
[Chorus]
Rusted halo, broken fists
I keep begging while I slit my wrists
Screaming “save me” with a mouth of hate
Then I dive right back in the flames I made
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel this way?
If You’re there, can You stand this mess?
‘Cause I can’t stand one more breath in this chest
Details
GeneratedMar 8, 2026
Duration3:36
LanguageEnglish
Style
rap, Hybrid rap / death metal with male vocals: tense, detuned intro drones into a half-time, palm-muted chug over booming, swung trap drums. Verses spit close-mic’d, hostile rap in the pocket of a syncopated riff; pre-chorus climbs with tom runs and dissonant guitar bends. Chorus explodes into blast beats, layered screamed hook with a faint, buried clean vocal doubling the main melody. Brief feedback-smeared breakdown in the bridge, then a last, choking a cappella line., death metal, metal
Credits
Prompt bymgoods
ModelAria v5
Prompt
rap, metal, death metal being angry felling depressed blaming god asking for forgiveness trying to be better and failing self hatred asking why I feel this way praying angry violence
