Verse 1
Another cigarette burns down to nothing in my hand.
The sunrise feels like punishment instead of second chance.
You ask me where my head’s been—I laugh and change the scene.
I’ve gotten way too fucking good at saying what I don’t mean.
The mirror’s got my number, but it never says a word.
It just watches while I swallow every goddamn thing that hurts.
You tell me I look different… I tell you I’m alright.
Guess we’ve both become professional at killing daylight.
Pre-Chorus
I keep my back against the wall…
Not because I’m scared to fall.
It’s just easier than wondering who’s real.
Chorus
I’ve got a deadbolt smile,
A “don’t ask why” kind of face.
Another fucked-up masterpiece
That nobody can place.
If you knock, I might answer…
Or I might kill the lights.
Depends which version of myself
Shows up tonight.
Verse 2
Every conversation feels like walking through a mine.
One wrong word and everybody starts picking fucking sides.
So I nod when I should argue. I joke when I should bleed.
Funny how pretending slowly turns into a need.
Everybody says they get it…
Bullshit—they don’t know.
They’ve never had to make a home
Out of ghosts that won’t let go.
So pour another drink and let the silence pull its weight.
It’s cheaper than explaining why I always show up late.
Pre-Chorus
Every exit looks the same…
Different faces, same damn game.
Maybe I’m the one who never learned.
Chorus
I’ve got a deadbolt smile,
A “don’t ask why” kind of face.
Another fucked-up masterpiece
That nobody can place.
If you knock, I might answer…
Or I might kill the lights.
Depends which version of myself
Shows up tonight.
Bridge (Half-time)
Go ahead—say I’m impossible.
Say I’m hard to fucking read.
Maybe you’re right…
Maybe I’ve forgotten what honesty feels like.
Maybe all this noise inside my head
Just sounds like silence from the outside.
Breakdown (Screamed)
Kick the fucking door!
Watch me swear it’s fine!
Watch me laugh while everything’s
Falling out of line!
I’m sick of digging trenches!
Sick of counting scars!
How the fuck do you find home…
When you’ve forgotten where you are?!
Final Chorus
I’ve got a deadbolt smile…
Cracked around the seams.
Held together by the lies
That pass for fucking dreams.
If you knock, keep knocking…
Maybe one damn night
I’ll remember how to leave the porch light on…
Instead of hiding from the light.
Outro
No heroes.
No enemies.
Just another morning
Trying not to disappear.
