Is That For Me

If I looked different from everything that I’ve learned,

Would you fall for me

Or stay on the other side of the room

It’ll still be okay

’Cause I’m scared of giving somebody

A heart that’s been through what mine’s been through Most of the criticism comes from me,

Looking at myself like, “This can’t be who I’m supposed to be.” I keep telling my mind that loneliness shouldn’t control me, But I’m desperate for something new, Something that makes me believe. I wanna travel the world with the love of my life, Take a flight somewhere neither of us has seen.

Get lost in a city, stay out all night,

Find out what living actually means.

I want somebody beside me

When the view finally looks like my dreams.

But every time I picture it,

Something inside starts asking me

(Ahhhwawaha)

Is that for me, Is that for me

(Ahhhwawaha)

Could somebody really see what I see

I wanna feel free,

I wanna believe

There’s still a whole damn life

Waiting somewhere for me

(Ahhhwawaha)

Is that for me, Is that for me

Or am I dreaming of somebody

I don’t believe I deserve to be

If I looked different from the lessons that I’ve learned,

Would you still want me

After everything took its turn

I’m ready to move on,

I got too many visions,

But I’m living with conditions

That I can’t erase by wishing.

I can’t undo it,

So I gotta learn to live through it.

And if somebody sees all of me

And stays

I wanna learn how to love through it.

I don’t wanna feel different anymore.

I wanna experience what I dreamed about before.

Something significant,

Someone magnificent,

Not somebody here to save me

Just somebody who sees there’s still more.

I’m tired of seeing myself in black and white,

Tired of letting my thoughts decide my whole life.

I wanna take control,

Get some color back inside my soul

But…

(Ahhhwawaha)

Is that for me, Is that for me

Could love still become

Something I get to believe

(Ahhhwawaha)

Is that for me, Is that for me

I wanna stop chasing dreams

And start living something real with me.

Somebody call me,

Tell me I’m thinking too deep

I keep waiting on some savior queen

To come rescue me.

But maybe that’s the problem

I keep looking outside of me

For somebody to fight the battles

I won’t even admit I need.

Every time hope starts talking,

My mind interrupts immediately.

Like, “Who are you to want more

Who are you supposed to be”

I wanna make my life better,

But wanting it and doing it

Are two different things to me.

So will I put in the effort

Will I fight for my life in my head

Will I stop calling myself unworthy

Before somebody even gets the chance

Maybe I gotta start believing

That what happened doesn’t decide

What I’m allowed to have next,

(Ahhhwawaha)

Is that for me, Is that for me

A life where somebody

Actually wants to stay with me

(Ahhhwawaha)

Is that for me, Is that for me

Traveling, loving, laughing,

Becoming somebody I wanna be

I don’t know yet

But I wanna see

Maybe there’s still a brighter way for me

(Ahhhwawaha)

Maybe there’s still a brighter way for me..