Goodbye

Spending you’re final days pretending everything’s fine an you’ll be okay.

People leaving their goodbyes at you’re grave with a beautiful bouquet.

From the time you flat line to being burned or buried like a land mine.

Losing you’re damn mind trying to unwind knowing everything’s not fine.

Buried an carried away to be put in the ground where you will stay.

No more birthdays or seeing the sun rays just dirt where you decay.

In the ground like treasure but there is no pleasure just darkness.

The sharpness of pain you’re heart gets stained death fills you’re carcass.

Scary feeling knowing you’re not healing watching you’re health decline.

Sooner our later death we await her end up in a box like wine.

Heaven or hell I can’t tell where you an I may reside.

I don’t decide I can’t provide the answers

Im not you’re guide.

Eyes closing times frozen everything becomes suddenly still.

Wish we could heal our loved ones with a magical pill.

Hearts hurting can’t find the wording to explain my pain.

I try not to complain but I’m crashing down like a broken plane.

Life’s like chess playing on a unstable desk during a tornado.

Makes you’re mind go out of line wanting to explode like a volcano.

I promise I’m fine my mind just likes to go off the track.

Need to gather my thoughts an put them in a nice neat stack.

What good is venting just maybe preventing another possible loss.

Wanting to feel blissful not explode like a missile whats the cost.

Overthinking’s get me drinking sinking down to the bottom of the bottle.

Thought the next day I’d be fine this time but I still feel awful.