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My head is not empty but instead very full

Feeling like a grenade the pins about to be pulled

Craving peace an quiet cause it’s a riot in my fucking brain

Wish it would stop cause my heads about to pop like a bottle of champagne.

Skulls cracking thoughts stacking overfilling my dome

Depression and Anxiety is inside of me and its feeling right at home.

Hearts shrinking slowly sinking definitely thinking of calling it quits

I would never because my daughter deserves better no matter how hard it gets.

So much pressure it’s a true stresser when your brains the villain

Putting you in a bad mood seeming like a mad dude when you are just chilling.

The soul is screaming the volumes increasing but my voice is on mute

Thoughts constantly running not having fun when it’s a constant pursuit.

These past few years have brought many tears along with plenty of laughs

Lots of good moments with sad events that has made life a suffering task.

I see nothing just the storm it’s the norm no rainbows that flow over the sunshine

Would be nice what’s the price I’m sure I could afford it sometime.

I’m my biggest enemy some of the things I’ve said to me

Probably will continue until I am the age seventy It’s just who I am that is my identity.

Thinking back to when I was on track an the train was stable

When I was focused on my paper I held it together just like a staple.

My brains maturing continuing the curing of past dramas

Hoping the rest of life goes alright an my dog is my last trauma.

As my eyes open I’m already hoping the day is coming to an end

Hate feeling this way believe me when I say everyday I have to pretend.

Faking my feelings putting on a mask to conceal them sneaky mind traps

Thoughts trying to be ignored they don’t use the door they slip through the fine cracks.

Entering my brain my tears falling like rain when I’m craving peace

Heartbeat increases I’m falling to pieces my demons are having a feast.

Standing in the shower feeling like a coward for being mentally weak

These panic attacks are seriously whack great my eyes are starting to leak.

Making it to work attempting to fake a smirk so theres no suspicion

Trying to staying afloat for my daughter she helps me cope on life’s mission.