[Verse 1]
Bipolar disorder got me trippin’ out
Drugs and alcohol were my only route
Wasn’t lookin' for fun, just a way to numb
All the voices in my head when the night would come
Mood swings like a pendulum blade
Up one day, then I crash for days
Tellin’ people “I’m fine” with a crooked smile
While I’m drownin’ in my thoughts and denial
Yeah, I ain’t proud of the pills I took
Tryna rewrite pain like a burned-out book
Blackout nights, I forgot my name
Just to feel nothin’ — I embraced the shame
Sippin’ poison just to quiet the storm
But I woke up broken, twice as torn
Chasin’ peace in a bottle’s lie
Till I looked in the mirror and I couldn’t recognize
[Hook]
Bipolar got me runnin' in circles
Dark thoughts tight like a vice, no verbal
Drugs in my veins, pain in my chest
Didn’t wanna live, but I feared death
Yeah, I was trippin' out
Couldn’t see a way, couldn’t find a route
But somehow — somehow — I’m still here
Still standin’ through the fear
[Verse 2]
Yeah —
You ever scream in a silent room?
Heart rate racin' like it’s chasin’ doom
Tellin’ God “I’m done,” with a tear-stained face
Feelin’ like a burden you can’t erase
Mental health ain’t a punchline, it’s prison
Some days I wish I didn’t keep livin’
But I got tired of the lies I fed
And the fake peace I found in meds
So I dropped to my knees in the middle of night
Told God, “I’m broken — I ain’t got fight”
Didn’t hear a voice, but I felt that grace
Like He stepped right into that hopeless place
Now I’m still scarred, still got lows
Still get waves when the darkness flows
But I ain’t alone — that’s truth now
I ain't perfect, but I ain't bowin' out
[Hook]
Bipolar got me runnin' in circles
Dark thoughts tight like a vice, no verbal
Drugs in my veins, pain in my chest
Didn’t wanna live, but I feared death
Yeah, I was trippin' out
Couldn’t see a way, couldn’t find a route
But somehow — somehow — I’m still here
Still standin’ through the fear
[Bridge]
If you feel like you're losin' control...
You ain't alone.
If you're lookin' for a way out…
There is one.
This ain’t the end.
[Final Hook]
Bipolar disorder had me trippin' out
Drugs and alcohol were my only route
Now I fight with truth, not a glass or flame
God pulled me out, I ain’t playin’ that game
Yeah, I still fall, still feel pain
But I got hope runnin' through these veins
I was trippin’ out…
Now I’m reachin’ out