Indifference

It’s difficult when you look at a parent

And feel nothin’ but cold indifference starin’

Used to chase love, now I’m barely carin’

Every fight’s like a loop, I’m just silently bearin’

Blamed for things I ain’t even do

Twistin’ my words like I’m twistin’ the truth

Yellin’ my name in a house with no proof

Feels like I'm fightin' a ghost in the room

Tired of tiptoein’ like I’m the threat

Breathin’ the tension with every breath

This ain’t discipline, this is neglect

Say it’s respect, but it’s just control in a vest

I was the kid who just wanted to play

You were the storm that rained on my day

Now I’m grown up and I’m tryna escape

From the voice in my head that still sounds like your rage

I didn’t break this, I just survived it

Tired of pain that you tried to disguise with

Shouts in the night, tears in the light

I was the child, you were the fight

You say it’s love, I can’t see it clear

'Cause love don’t sound like hatred in my ears

I didn’t do wrong, but you made me the villain

Now all I feel when I see you is chillin’

(Indifference... cold as stone...)

(Indifference... I’m on my own...)

I learned to bottle it, stuff it inside

Smile at the door while I’m dyin’ inside

Say it’s all better, but I still rewind

To the nights when your silence cut deeper than knives

Never said sorry, just moved on fast

Like none of it mattered, like it’s all in the past

But I still carry it like a cast

Even when healed, I can’t forget that

You say you did what you thought was right

But right ain’t breakin' a kid every night

Right ain’t watchin’ me lose my light

While you lecture me on what’s black and white

Tired of beggin’ for peace from a war

That I never asked for, never swore

But I stood on the frontline, broke and ignored

Just a kid who wanted more

I didn’t break this, I just survived it

Tired of pain that you tried to disguise with

Shouts in the night, tears in the light

I was the child, you were the fight

You say it’s love, I can’t see it clear

'Cause love don’t sound like hatred in my ears

I didn’t do wrong, but you made me the villain

Now all I feel when I see you is chillin’

(Indifference... nothing left to say...)

(Indifference... just walked away...)

You want forgiveness, but skipped confession

You want connection, without reflection

You want to be proud of who I’ve become

But won’t own what you did to the person I was

I don’t hate you, I’m just numb

No more tears, they stopped when I was young

You say, “I love you,” but it feels like a gun

Loaded with guilt, every time that it’s sung

I didn’t break this, I just survived it

Tired of pain that you tried to disguise with

Shouts in the night, tears in the light

I was the child, you were the fight

You say it’s love, I can’t see it clear

'Cause love don’t sound like hatred in my ears

I didn’t do wrong, but you made me the villain

Now all I feel when I see you is chillin’

(Indifference... and that’s my peac