Screaming out

Verse 1]

Yeah, I relapsed, fell right on my face

Scraped my knees through the haze, couldn’t keep the pace

Thought I left it in the past, guess the past won’t behave

Now I'm back in this cage, feeling trapped in my ways

Mirror cracked, all I see is shame in my eyes

Told myself lies just to buy a disguise

Smile like it’s fine, but I’m dying inside

Faith on the line while I’m trying to survive

Voices in my head say, "You're just like before"

Knocked me to the floor, don’t wanna fight no more

But I swore I’d be better, now I’m worse than I’ve been

Lost again, God, can You let me in?

God, can You hear me? 'Cause I’m screaming out

Tears in my voice but there’s fear in the sound

Built a wall around my heart, now I’m tearing it down

Can You meet me in the wreckage where I'm barely found?

God, can You hear me? ‘Cause I’m screaming out

I’m drowning in regret, tryna breathe somehow

If You’re still there in the dark, would You lead me out?

God, can You hear me? ‘Cause I’m screaming out

Used to preach hope, now I’m scared of my faith

Used to run from the pain, now I stare in its face

Tried to walk on water, now I sink with the weight

Of every bad choice that I wish I ain’t make

Back on my knees, same carpet, same tears

Same fears whisper lies I’ve believed for years

I broke free, but the chain’s still tight on my wrist

It’s like I’m free but I’m chained by the life I resist

I pretend I’m okay, but I’m far from strong

Smile for the crowd, then I fall when they're gone

Heard Your voice in the silence, felt peace for a minute

Then I slipped and I'm right back in it

God, can You hear me? 'Cause I’m screaming out

Tears in my voice but there’s fear in the sound

Built a wall around my heart, now I’m tearing it down

Can You meet me in the wreckage where I'm barely found?

God, can You hear me? ‘Cause I’m screaming out

I’m drowning in regret, tryna breathe somehow

If You’re still there in the dark, would You lead me out?

God, can You hear me? ‘Cause I’m screaming out

Yeah, I walked away, said I’d never turn back

Now I’m staring at the road with the dirt on the path

Every scar’s got a story that the crowd don’t see

And every win don’t mean that I’m finally free

I’m a war zone quiet in a Sunday suit

I’m a prayer on fire that’s searching for truth

If grace is for the broken, then maybe I still qualify

Just tell me You’re close when I call and cry

God, can You hear me? 'Cause I’m screaming out

Tears in my voice but there’s fear in the sound

Built a wall around my heart, now I’m tearing it down

Can You meet me in the wreckage where I'm barely found?

God, can You hear me? ‘Cause I’m screaming out

I’m drowning in regret, tryna breathe somehow

If You’re still there in the dark, would You lead me out?

God, can You hear me? ‘Cause I’m screaming out

Yeah, I relapsed…

But I’m reaching for Your hand through the relapse…

If You’re still near…

God, I’m screaming, can You hear?