Intro
Yeah, I'm stuck in survival mode
Lost in my head, lost in the cold
Verse 1
Baby mama calling me violent
Courtroom packed, every move under sirens
CPS believing what they heard not what’s true
My son in foster care, what am I supposed to do?
Say reunification but it’s just a show
Look in their eyes, and the verdict’s thrown
I’m chosen, anointed, I rise from the dirt
But everybody here wanna see me hurt
Pre-Hook
All of the sacrifices, left out in the rain
Took care of yours, got nothing but pain
Surrounded by chaos, she feeding the hype
Calling me abusive just to ruin my life
Hook
How can I breathe when I’m drowning in lies?
Voices in my head screaming “won’t you die?”
Hope’s on a rope, I’m afraid to let go
Crying out for help but nobody knows
Scars on my soul, pain in my veins
Demons keep feeding, driving me insane
Lost in the dark, can’t find my way home
I’ll survive—even if I’m all alone
Verse 2
Phone calls in the night, she running outside
Another man’s kid calling me “dad” while I die
She’s hiding secrets, can’t trust her tone
Narcissist games got me left all alone
Pre-Chorus
Now I’m stuck, yeah, survival mode
Bruised and battered with nowhere to go
Courts say they working for a family reunion
Feels like I’m fighting the whole institution
Chorus
Survival mode, yeah, I’m holding on
Paint me the villain, but I know they’re wrong
Lost in the system while I'm screaming the truth
Broken but I do it all for you
Dramatic Bridge
Standing in thunder, I scream at the rain
Lightning above me can’t numb out my pain
Shadows are pulling, I’m close to the edge
Gripping my faith with blood on the ledge
If I fall under, will anyone care?
Or will they just point and pretend I’m not there?
Praying for answers, choking on pride
But even in hell I refuse to hide
Outro
Survival mode, this pain won’t last
The real always rise when the storm has passed
Got a story to tell, scars I own
From the wreckage, I’ll build my own throne
