They call me violent
she played me with a lie, tried to get me locked away
I hear sirens every night, took care of another man's kid, god forbid , rip my heart outta my chest sellin at an auction they make a bid how you gonna lie when you made your bed living around chaos you gon blame me for what you did.
Never got respect, she gave CPS a story, now they watch every step
Sacrifice made nothing, just more pain to collect
Now I'm haunted by the judgment, cigarettes and regret
Every phone call she hid, every whisper in the hall
Now all I got is anger and four empty walls
Lost my head to the mess, lost my faith in the fight
Only demons in the darkness sitting with me tonight
[Chorus]
I'm not the monster you painted in your head
I'm just a father bruised, abused trying to calm my fuse
Justice feels crooked, every promise just breaks
Can't see my boy, how much more can I take?
Condemned in the shadows, I drowned in their words
Love turned to poison, I'm nothing but hurt
[Verse 2]
They hear a story, never cared for my side I got nothing to hide
Fighting for forgiveness from who I need most
Sacrifice invisible, nobody sees the cost
Being a good man just means you get lost
[Bridge]
Flashing blue lights in my rearview
Every nightmare I live feels brand new
Broken lullabies in my head when I sleep, son's
Picture on the wall, all I do is weep
Ain't no savior coming, just the same story repeat
Still searching for a reason I can't accept defeat
Locked out of love, locked out of my life
Every scar, every secret, pleading on the street lights
[Chorus]
I'm not the monster you painted in your head
I'm just a father bruised,abused trying to calm my fuse
Justice feels crooked, every promise just breaks
Can't see my boy, how much more can I take?
Condemned in the shadows, I drowned in their words
Love turned to poison, I'm nothing but hurt
[Outro]
All I wanted was to hold him again
Forgiveness feels so far, pain that'll never end
