[Intro]
Ri-Ri-Ri-Rizzvi on da beat
[Verse 1]
I wish shit was different but you out here trippin
And I’m on child support—struggling, tryna make a livin
Paying bills for two but still denied visitation
Tryna show my son I love him but you make it hard to build a relation
You tryna claim Iam domestic and abusive
The courts don’t care to listen and your thoughts are intrusive
You move bad with your impulsive decisions
Causing chaos around you and taking my breath away your on a mission
Fuckin hyperventilatin, can’t get the truth out
My ADHD won’t let me, you won’t tell the truth like you should be
Took a silver bullet, you shot me, left me dirty
Had a sheriff come out and serve me
A restraining order is what you gave me
Add me back on socials, you driving me crazy
Don’t make me laugh, you’re manipulating
Your chaos you live in is aggravating
You stir up the pot, tuck your tail and flee
Tried to communicate but you didn’t listen to me
Told you didn’t have my permission to take our son out of state
You said, “We’ll just wait and see.” You used that as bait tried to get a reaction out of me
[Chorus]
Not the first time you did this to me
First day we had our baby you let your mom in between
She got in the middle
She likes to meddle
[Verse 2]
Thought the pain would fade but it stays on replay
Fighting my demons in the cold light of day
I’m moving through memories, hope coming in waves
Lost in this struggle, but I’m finding new ways
If my son could hear this song, I know he’d understand
I fought for his love with blood on my hands
When life tries to break me, I’ll rise where I stand
Still building a future, trying to be a good man a good dad
[Chorus]
Not the first time you did this to me
First day we had our baby you let your mom in between
She got in the middle
She likes to meddle
[Verse 3]
Nothing’s simple now, it’s all a test
Wounds a little deeper, but I give my best
Every call unanswered, but I still confess
Miss the days we laughed—damn, this life’s a mess
If my son’s listening, hope he understands
I’ll always fight for him, across any land
Truth on these records, pain in these hands
Still chasing peace, still making plans
[Chorus]
Not the first time you did this to me
First day we had our baby you let your mom in between
She got in the middle she likes to meddle
[Outro]
Time will heal what I can’t explain
Hope for tomorrow growing through pain
Tangled hearts healing slow, but I’ll try
Still love my son—never say goodbye
